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BEAUTIFUL RECOLLECTIONS<: chu chu chu sheng (:

becs and i <3


<3


sweet for my sweets(:
julene and i <3

hello (: i just had my addmath paper today. i'm as good as dead pleaseeeeee >:

got back my chinese paper2 result - 39/70.

IPASSED! :D

this week had really been fruitful (: take a look at the photos and you'll know (:

labour day , tues 01may -

went to holland village with julene and becs to err study? we ended up talking about people's life , what we're gonna do after midyears(suntanning , shopping and baking!) and stuffs like this. so we ended up in town trying to catch spiderman 3. IT WAS FULL ): so we productively studied at lido (: and headed to cine to take neoprints. bid goodbye to my sweethearts and went to look for sheng and dharham at hsbc tower's starbucks. went to far east for dinner and paragon for ice cream (:

thursday , 03may -

YIPEEEE YAYY FOR SS AND GEOG! (: stayed back after school with irvin , julene and becs! <: met baby and alistair to study (: xiaowei and his friend sanji came along. it was a loved ones day! :] and i stayed till 8plus and headed home with bestie alist.

friday , 04may -

addmath paper - goner. met aaronleong at macs to have breakfast(: irvin came along! <: went to somerset to meet baby. we shopped at haji lane and vivocity(: and ate at bakerzin. and watched movie at westmall. RYAN GOSLING IS HOTNESS. :D

i think i like the lonsdale bag i saw.

the beige jumper and yellow flats and zara jacket &&amp;amp;amp;&&!

teehee! -hints.

saturday , 05 may -

meeting alistair , fiona and chenxw to study at rp and then to church!

GOODBYE.

I'M BEAT AND SICK>:

hi peeeee-ple <:


i'm gonna turn in soon.
english and chinese exams done ; not too bad (:
gonna meet rebecca and julene tomorrow at holland village.
goodbye! <:

I HAVE THIS HUNCH THAT I'LL SCREW UP TOMORROW'S PAPER ;

ESP ENGLISH PAPER 1.

i need all the prayers a saint can say.
- point point point bless me.


& i'm gonna meet baby after school to study , and then head for cell group.
sweet stuffs(:



bye all you.
goodnight.

at gwen's birthday party (:
baby and i at starbucks <3

hello you all (: i've been so busy with prep work for exams and stuffs that i rarely come online.
anyhoos , i pon-ned school today cause i thought it was better to study at home , which it true! (: studied with baby and leo at wisma's starbucks today. leo taught me a tiny bit of chinese (:! YAY.

lessy called me on my way home and told me stuffs.
i'm really pissed.
but i guess , at the end of the day she's at the losing end. not us.
who's gonna stay in school for a couple more years and who's gonna move on to the next phase of life.
we don't have to spill it out , you know the answer yourself.
so yes , hopefully the good old years won't be detrimental to your mental being.

again i've said , i won't poke my nose into your business no matter what you do.

so , whatever floats your damned boat.

(: back to the greener side of the grass.

am talking to sijie and shah now.

they're such nice people.

haha you won't know what i'm talking about.

but yes sijie is awesome cause ------------------- :p

to end off ,

I LOATHE EXAMS.

I'M STRESSED AND IT GIVES ME MORE ZITS.

been sick for almost 6 days (:
FINALLY I'M FINE.
okayy my dear irvin called me just now and she told me some stuffs that happened in school that made our dear chinese teacher cried.



MY VERY BELOVED MDM WAN ,
I HOPE YOU READ THIS (: AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW WE ALL LOVE YOU ALOT ALRIGHT. I'M NOT SURE ABOUT THE CLASS. BUT YES , AT LEAST , I DO! :>
YOU'RE ONE OF THE NICEST TEACHER I'VE EVER MET.
DON'T BE SAD ALREADY (: I'LL GET MY DAD TO DROP BY AT CAUSEWAY POINT AND I'LL GET YOU FLOSS BREAD K! <333
PLENTY OF LOVE.




so yeah i'm going back to school and i'm really happy! :D
I MISS MY LITTLE "FAMILY".
my sister's pestering me to get off the comp.
so bye.

i'm missing you terribly much.

HAPPY THREE FRIENDS (:
WE'LL FLY AND LAND TOGETHER.
LOVE WILL TAKE US THERE.
aaron neo and i (:
happy times!

so yes , i'm still like uploading yesterday's photos! :D
hahah , anyways i'm so sick now so i didn't go to school (:
-BEAMS!
erwin talked to me online from LA.
hahah he's sucha bummer.
didn't even tell me he was leaving!
and he's such a flattering friend.
plenty of love for that friend! (:

baby's in school now , and i'm not replying him.
he thinks i'm sleeping but i'm busy doing some stuffs for him!
hahahahha :D
HE'S GONNA LOVE ME MORE.


bye worlldddd!

sentosa with my girlfriends and some other guys today.

played luge = TEH BOMB!

heee.

baby came over.

lazy to blog.

BYEBYEBYE.

LOOS,

i'm talking to shah now and i realised so many things!

hahah , i could have gotten together with him last year if not for some miscommunication.

HAHAHA!

not anymore.

i adore shengggg now.!

head over heels!

may angels lead you in.

had dinner with hillary , esther ,and nat at junction8 last night

& i think we took almost 45mins to take neoprints.

:D

went to meet dearest fionnaaa and baby at holland village to study(:

studied at starbucks.

tian , the sofa was so comfortable!

heeeee.

saw nick oh and friends.

we studied till around 4plus and fiona and i started talking about good old pee school days.

hahaha i swear we burst out into hilarity!

talked about everything! (:

hahha.

gotta go to sentosa with angelyn , vera , fiona , kirk and all.

will upload photos tomorrow!

we judge ; curse of the human race.

much as you dislike her ,she'd love to kill your hypocrisy.

why can't we draw a clear line and stop hurting each other.

if you think we had done you wrong ,

then we're sorry , i think?

i wished i could put you off with a fire extinguisher though.

just like a star across my sky.






i had such a bad tummyache last night , so i decided to skip school and REST! :D
much for convenience (:
anyhoosss , HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILLARY AND RUIQI.
you girls will always be endeared close.


loos ,
gonna shower soon and leave for toapayoh to meet hunn.
i'm gonna study for awhile while waiting for him ,
then he's gonna sell his phone.
he wants to buy sony ericsson W880i!
:D :D :D
then gonna meet hillary to have dinner(:



friday , 06april - meet fio at hollandv to study (: - BEAMS!
saturday , 07april - angelyn's birthday at sentosa . YAYYYY!
sunday , 08april - grandma's death anniversary. time for a visit(: !



FOLKS , BLAST YOUR SPEAKER AND LISTEN TO THE NEW SONG I PUT IN MY BLOG.
IT'S TEH NEW LOVEZXZXZXZXZ!
(:



byebyebye world.

PICTURES SAY IT ALL (:
;BLISS.

you're like ecstacy upon my lips ;

sometimes it hurts , but yet another addiction.

baby and i! (:
<333!

i'm sitting in front of the laptop for less than an hour , and i feel my body burning :D

loos , i think school's really dirty. like it makes our faces so sticky and oily.

i can't stand the humidity! >:

it really sucks big time.

headed home straight after school(: baby came over after playing dota.

he read all my letters with me , like all the letters since i was like pee4 till now.

we talked and played(:

went down for dinner.

hunn fed me when i was on the phone with irvin(:

YOU'RE REALLY LOVELY CHUSHENG.

EVERY LITTLE THINGS YOU DO SHOW ME HOW MUCH YOU CARE.

I ADORE YOU! :D

we ate prawn noodle and agar agar.

sheng came up to my place for awhile , stayed till around 8 and left.

loos , baby told me some stuffs that happened on mon/tues in town with like leo, leont , greg and all.

HAHAHA HILAROUS TOOOTS.

(:

school will be really long tomorrow): until 5plus.

and i'm meeting sheng and isaac on friday at holland!

both my lalalalalings!

(:

sat will be out with alist and fiona at rp to study! [:

then to town with baby , leo and vann to catch mr bean's holidays.

YAYAYYYY

goodnight world ,

with much love(:

today was my last lesson with uncle daniel , so we ended talking(:
he's so sweet.
i can't perish the thought of not being able to see him for another 6 months.
he's just like a daddy to me , and i love him! :D
i'm gonna get him a card when i drop by his house soon!
THANK YOU UNCLE DANIEL FOR EVERYTHING!:D





sometimes school feels like a garbage truck;

it drives on a road , collecting all kind of shit.

the partially intellectual ones will get what i mean(: if you don't , ______ :P

SCHOOL WAS MUCH OF A BORE TODAY.

i loathe the monotonous voice of ms devi , the looking-oh-so-overly-enthusiastic-about-cme's betty. BUT they're nice teachers , i guess? hee.

i got lowest in class for chinese again ): 18/100. yeah even alvin got 25.

i didn't submit any chinese essay for the past 3months , highest mark for "ting xie" was only 2?! so i think teacher's remark of 18/100 is actually an overstatement.

:D

i've got really nice teachers you see.

went to woodlands interchange with lessy to meet baby and greg.

(i saw some really disgusting wusssssieess by the way. imagine guys trying to be bimbotic and all. mto right?)

so yes , sheng went to yishun with me to get my contacts changed and cabbed down to bukit batok for my piano lesson(:

goodnight sweethearts(:

sometimes i find myself crying my eyes red ,

when a part of you invaded my thought.

this is honey at wheelock's coffeebean (:
my lessy irvin ong and i! <333
THIS NYDC'S GORILLA IS HELLA CUTEEE!
lessy and i in school again. i look damned weird here/:

couldn't watch mr bean's holidays yesterday cause of hongkong boyyyy! >:

anyhows ,

went to wisma with leo , vann and baby for dinner.

vann went back to work.

ohmy people , look at the gorilla above. it's cuteeeeeeee!

realllyyyyyy. it's sitting outside nydc(:

okay so after that (: , leo and sheng wanted to teach me billiard.

so we went to far east shopping.

but i didn't play in the end(:

didn't like it.

hehehe!

and headed home (:

those photos are taken either today or yesterday (:

figure it out yourself.

eujin was being a erefgsydtgywehgfytryd in class today laa.

to cut long story short , i wrapped my fingers with his mucus tissue!

/:

>:

):

joshua , irvin , enjin and i laughed our arses off.

then sijie , leonard , alvin , irvin and i were also talking about alot of things during the "police talk."

hahaha my classmates make my school days worth it(:

teehee.

byeeee loves.

baby and i at the japanese restaurant(:
mug mug mug honey!
leo , vann , sheng and my dinner.
sealed with a kiss.

tweeeeeeeze for my besties! <:

HELLO! <:

went to republic poly's conference room to study with fionaaasng and alistairkoh this morning till around 4pm(: anyhows , it was really fun studying together with them. they're such precious things!heeeee :D and we took alot of photos together! LOOK.

so train-ed to town to meet hunn. went to meridien and waited for him to play dota (: i was really tired. thought i could go home soon. HAHAH , NOT! while walking out of meridien , leo was asking me some stuffs so like baby and leo got quite angry over some stuffs. haha what am i talking about?!?! anyhoos , thank god for hunn , leo and vann. they make my weekend gooooooood! ((: so like met vann at paragon. we went to some japanese restaurant there to eat. it's quite nice<:

so i'm meeting sheng , leo and vann to catch mr bean's holiday!

YAYYYYY.

GOOOOODDDNIGHTTT PEOPLE , I'M BEAT.

SCHOOL UNIFORM MALFUNCTION!

THIS IS DAMNED FUN.

TRY THIS WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND GIRLS.

back to the school-girl look.

with boooooks and pens , papers and folders , story books and highlighters to mass my bag.

plain jane ponytail.

mug mug mug for os ; ----.----- , but whatever.

I HAVE TO!

yesterday - mug with alist at toa payoh.

today - baby's coming over to mug with me (:

sat(tomorow) - mug with fiona , alist and ruiqing at rp.

sunday - mug with baby at esplanade ,

mister bean's holidays with baby , elton and his girlfriend!

YEEHAA I'M PROUD OF MYSELF.

okayy look people look.

i was crying over some stuffs last night and i used almost half a box of tissue.

and i conveniently threw the tissues out of the window.

there is a ledge outside my window by the way.

then mummy text me this morning [sophia what time are you coming home? i'v something to tell you.]

went home and mummy said ,

"the environmental staff came to complain that you threw tissues out of the window and it's all over the floor. the cleaner had to sweep it this morning. please clear all the tissues. the next time this happens , we won't just give a verbal warning."

BANGS!

BYEEEEEE I'M OFF TO SCHOOL.

xoxo.

baby and i went to raffles city today , and we took alot of photos.

went to mph to get my books and journal.

to yakun for eggs!

to accesorize to get our furry pens !

LOOK AT THE PHOTOS <:

then to citylink's tcc , to study. (not)

in the end , we took truckloads of photos!

heheheh <3

then to get some stuffs.

and ended up at polar puffs to eat again.

HAHAHHA:D

we spent like around 100bucks today.

i had funnnnnn , YAY.

i'm gonna meet chenxiaowei tomorrow!

rocks socks! <:

:D hellooooo!

turned up for chinese lesson this morning and leonard came to sit beside me so we could talk. leonard and i had a twinky promise on something so he's not supposed to say out. GET THAT MY GOOD FRIEND! -beams! hunn came down to causeway to meet me for awhile and we bus-ed to my house. i was feeling nostalgic when we were in the bus. HAHAH<: baby and i had steamboat with my mum and sister ((:
i was really full , like really! then baby cabbed me to my piano teacher's house (: my eyes were failing me so badly. i couldn't read my scores. I COULDN'T SEE CLEARLY , AND I DON'T KNOW WHY! poooo. cabbed back home cause it was really raining hella heavily >: i was drenched like i don't know what.
baby's at raffles town club having dinner now , and he may be coming over after the party later! YAY [: which means i can have someone to play with till late!

goodnight worldddddddddd! <:
chenxiaowei , you're so missed! :D

the grandmother ;

All of us , you and i are not spared from the clutches of menacing death. That , of course includes someone closely endeared to me and that's my grandmother. As i rummaged into the past , recollections started pouring in at such a speed it startled me.

It was something about her kindness , the offer of assistance without getting anything in return. Her face and midget body complements with her immaculate self. I had returned to a moment that had lain buried until now.

I grew up under the care of my grandmother till i was about five years old. During that period of sojourn , life was nothing more than extraordinary. Living past those mundane years with her , we still shared moments of joy and happiness. Every spaces between each second was the intermittent glints of bonding and love. She was like a close friend to me. Whenever i think about how empty my own life was , how devoid of relationships , she was my source of comfort , siphoning each and every weaknesses and doubts gradually. Whenever i feel daunted , she'd alleviate the fear and obscure the dark clouds for me . We had our piece of fun and laughter , which left people with a pang of envy. Like any other grandmothers , she'd bring me along to do groceries and introduce me to her friends in the market. Though it was really dirty and wet there , I always enjoyed accompanying her. She was adept at bargaining prices and that always leave us with peals of laughter. I just want to bask into the moment of sheer happiness again. But , good and beautiful things always come to an end.

She often smokes and drinks , much to the detriment of her health. The foul stench leading to a daunting terminal disease. She was bed-ridden and renditions of surgeries took place , but to no avail. I was struck by a feeling of immense space , feeling uneasy without her as I was already accustomed to her presence. Her voice began to faint away , and under the unscrupulous hands of fate , she left us without bidding goodbye.

I was stupefied at the sight of her dead corpse. Never realised the emotional impact, the way it slowed and fragmented one's thought. The surge of adrenaline drained me completely at the thought of not being able to accompany her through her very last journey. Silence of the ward seemed to envelope me. I was crying helplessly. Her words reverberating at the back of my mind vaguely. I gnawed my nails , succumbed to the tragedy reluctantly. I abhor the thought of living without her , without someone to douse me when i'm faulting. My throat felt parched. I hemmed and hawed , " Grandma , i love you. " as i wrenched my eyes away from her. To know that it's not only my parents who emboldened me , but also my grandmother who took care of me , played with me , protected me and loved me for who I am ; that's my greatest comfort and blessing.

this is an essay i found in my cupboard while i was packing my room.

though a story , it speaks of reality.

after which , my world fractured into something unrecognisable.

i miss her.