" To live is to love. "

Happy(?) New Year!

Chinese new year this year's kinda boring. I don't know, everything seems too commercialised for my liking. I don't get to spend my angpow money this year for some reasons so oh wells. Hahah i need to save damn hard for bangkok trip so i can spend like crazy there ^^ now come out one more europe trip that's postponed from october last year. Hahah not confirmed, but mummy wants to go this april! I got no $$$ for that nowwwww so i don't wanna go, but i wanna wear my blue h&m boots ): haven't worn it since i bought it from hongkong.

Hahah ok i'm not making sense at all.

Photos!

Sorry i'm very lazy for captions. Like julene said, how interesting can chinese new year get. It's all the same thing. Hahah. Ok maybe the only different thing is that vday falls on cny, but it doesn't make much of a difference for me. Never really appreciated vday cos it's too commercialised also. Hahh.

Oh wells. Another lazy post, which explains the language. haha. jie is flying off to bangkok later! >: i also wanna go. i miss the food and shopping. sighhhh.

k i wanna sleep noww, goodnight kidzzz :D should i catch vday soon anyways? i heard it's awesumzzz

Camera ):

Sigh i just realised that it's already past my one year warranty for my nikon camera!!! ): i shouldn't have procrastinated urghhhh! Should i spend the money to repair the cracked lcd screen and shifted lens or should i just save up a bit more to get a new camera! Sighhhh shitty feeling again. The camera has sentimental value and besides, it's only slightly more than one year old! ): ): howwwwwwwwwwwwwww. i'd rather fix it than to buy a new camera actually, but damnit... the repair costs for two problems! AHHHHHH I WANT TO STAB MYSELF. I love my camera, and stupid meeeeeeeeee why procrastinate!!!!!!!!! YOU WANT TO DIE IS IT SOPHIA HUH HUH HUH

I wish somehow both of you could see the conversations i have with D, and know that we both aren't leaving on a jetplane and leaving y'all in a lurch. Both of y'all still hang around at the back of our head, and we've pledged this guilt on ourselves for doing what we did and for making y'all feel this way. We are happy now, and we're not just wishing for just this. We both wish that y'all can find true happiness with whoever that comes along, someone well deserved of you two. We want you guys to be happier than what yall were than before. Hate us or not, we still wish y'all happiness.



Happy cny kitties anyways! Be fat and rich ^^
Photos are in fb!

Will there be sunshine after rain in all cases?

I'm having a mental battlefied now. There are so many things too much thoughts racing through my mind now, weighing out the consequences and future possibilities of the steps we took. I know be it foolish or for a better good, the choice has somewhat already been made and the verdict is out. But, is it the right choice? I'm dying questioning myself and not being able to find an answer that puts my mind at ease.

I wish i could see you now because right now, i choose to believe you're my remedy. Even for awhile, it's good enough.

I've been very moody and angsty lately. Sigh, i really wanna get out of this shithole.

Anyways, met up with bosco jee cailing and rico on friday for dinner and to watch rico perform at wisma indochine. He never fails to awe us with his voice. And the duet he had with the 9 years old girl was just sweeet.

Juice sales post is up by the way! Go grab some looots, it's very cheapppp $10-$20 only!
http://juicemarket.livejournal.com/8714.html


I'm very tired.
ps. I'm really sorry for what i did to you. I swear this guilt will never leave me.

Disco Pogo!

My head's spinning with disco pogo blasting my eardrums. Thank you myra love, we will be givers and recipients of songs! And yes, we will hit velvet after exams!

Y'know how i used to detest clubbing, now it feels weird to say "i want to club" or something along that line. I used to detest(ok maybe it's too strong a word) clubbing because from what i heard/seen, people always go to clubs with a sole intention of getting drunk and hooking up with a 2nd,3rd degree friends or sometimes worse... a complete stranger. Even till now, i still despise such acts and will never endorse such behaviour myself. I mean, why cheapen yourself? Both guys and girls. Yess.. guys included. I hate how people stereotype girls who have casual sex a slut, then guys who have casual sex a player(which is not that bad a term in this society).

I DON'T AGREE? Both gender who have casual sex are equally bad. I'm sorry if your conscience is hanging midway now or i hit a spot in you... but i'm not directing to anyone in particular.

So yes, back to the main point. Many people up till now still go to clubs to get drunk/hook up/drown their sorrows and the next day experience a bad hangover. Are your problems solved? Are you really happier? Does hooking up with someone make you feel more loved than you were or does it make you feel even more disgusted with yourself?

So, i guess my standpoint is still rather firm about reasons why SOME people go clubbing. I'm not saying all, which is why i still go once in awhile cos of the music dance friend's birthdays and girlfriends.

Holland's la mian xlb for sufz and sui's birthday dinner! Love the both of y'all, and happy birthday (:

it was pretty nice chilling out at some random corner of holland. i want to go to 2am dessert bar very badly by the way!!! ):

I've been spending a lot recently, and i need to curb curb curb. I still have a lot of expenses to cover for from now till april, sighh ): should be going bangkok again in april for a relatively long breakkkkk. haha 6 days there? I need to save up to get my bedframe and do a room revamp, buy clothes for juice market etc etc. Oh wells.

Yesterday, i tried the cookies man's brownies which is sold at taka. I'm currently on a hunt for singapore's nicest chocolate brownies. Can anyone help/suggest? (: please drop a comment or something, spankz!!

Till then, have a great weekend bunnies! xx

I love this song, does anyone have it? send to meeee (: spankz!!

Cancerian

(words in bold what i feel true to myself)

Cancer Women
When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, she very shy and polite trembling to be near you and Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if it is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable. She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt.

In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first. She is like a musical note always changes in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people may think of her as “Over-acting”, or “Over-reacting”.

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She loves money, and thinks of having “Money” as “happy”, not as “God”. She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoys a long and quiet walk(i LOVE it). Cancer woman is also influenced by the “moon”, so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman. She has a constant fear for many things. She fears of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfied. Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day. She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks.

She sees that everything is useful to her. She will find a way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type, but possessive. The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. Don’t leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, and she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally.

She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids(HAHA I THINK, ALTHOUGH I DON'T HAVE ONE NOW) every steps of the way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an “Old mate”. She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you.

If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it. The Cancer woman needs 2 things to be happy which are “Work” and “Love”. He can be live in a dusty house(nooooooooo!!!), but she can not live in that same house with no Love.


Scorpio Men
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man. He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain. He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling.

He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life. Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project.

One of the most successful men in the entire Zodiac he is. He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched. If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for.

He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is. He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments.

He will tell you the truth; even you might not be able to take it. Example, if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say “yes, as big as a balloon”. He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him. If he says “you look pretty today”, you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it.

There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait or his pay back time. He is very serious about your promise; do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend.

He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space. He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman’s mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about everything in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.

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What caught my attention the most...

Best Relationship Matches
Scorpio Their dominant nature fits well with your caring side.


Worst Relationship Matches
Gemini They are too flighty for you.

Ok i don't really believe in horoscope/zodiac cos i believe that destiny is in our very own hands, but this seems rather interesting and everything they wrote kinda hit a spot so i guess i'm slightly influenced now? haha. I'm still very skeptical about some lines, like say... cancerians need caring friends or something like that. Hello, like who doesn't need caring friends? everyone does. So that's what make everyone believe that horoscope is extremely true but it never hit them that that kinda description/lines is applicable to everyone who has a life and not to just an individual.

But yep, pretty interesting stuff.

Y'all can go check it out at : http://fantasyworld.wordpress.com/cancer-women/

I dislike technology

These few days have been rather productive. Nasty yet lovely, messy yet meaningful. I'm always contradicting myself no?

Met isaac and jiayi on saturday afternoon to chittyx2 bangx2 and camwhored @liat starbucks, bakerzin treat from isaac (: great time great friends.

love you babe.

hehe the vain/gay side of isaac no one ever knew.

Sunday saw me finishing up bcomm powerpoint slides, and nostalgic night with D. (: i am so in love with coffee and no matter how hard i try to curb my caffeine addiction, it seems to backfire on me. Caramel frap is my favourite in both sb and coffeebean, followed by hot cappuccino. Yummz, just talking about it makes me crave for one now.

saw this somewhere, and it aptly describes something(:

i love(x100) her inner wear.

Y'know how technology has advanced over the years making communication so much easier and more convenient for people like us. For people who are so busy with what seems important. Iphone, emails, msn, bbm, and different kinds of application are forms of communication which we all use almost every 15mins to half an hour. Technology brings us closer through words, but drifts us apart physically. What is xoxo in a text compared to real hugs & kisses, what's "i love you" without looking at the person's facial expression and body language, what's a long wordy email of appreciation or gratefulness compared to an embrace or handshake. You get my drift.

How good it is to sms your bestfriend "i'll always be there for you" when you can just be beside him/her physically lending them your shoulder to cry on and not whisper a single word. I prefer the latter. Think about it... would you want the whole world to text you happy birthday or would you rather just a bunch of close friends to spend quality time with you.

You love a person, you go the extra mile for him/her. You don't just sit there type a few strings of words expecting to melt a heart or heal a broken soul. You go beyond technology, live with the primitive form of transport/communication... take a bus/cab and show the person you really love him or her and that they are worth a bus ride, worth your time, worth your physical existence, definitely worth more than just a sms.

Everything technology can do, we can do but some things we can do, technology can't.

Love is something that technology can't comprehend nor express.