Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
come come buy something from juicemarket. i love almost everything, again. haha that's why its my online store right, cos i pick things i like. and thank you nana for the pix! you're just awesome (:
Tomorrow i'm doing my third shoot for fyndle, and i hope i can pose properly and pix will turn out well. Have i mentioned that fyndle's owner, tiffany, is really nice? I like her (:
Anyways, today daniel popped out at my place and gave me a big long hug. It's been what seemed forever since i last saw him. I think it was tuesday? And boy, we miss each other so much. I got off the phone with my supplier soon after d came in, and just tiptoe to plant a kiss on him and embraced him for so long. Yes, i miss him... so much. We had a simple day together, i was just sitting on him on my couch and we just looked at each other and talked the whole day, had lunch together at the coffeeshop near my place, and went back to my place to sleep. Even though he was right beside me, i was waiting him to sleep first so i could hear his snore and think about him to sleep. Midway sleeping, i felt him stroking my shoulders and went back to sleep. Now, he's out with his sec schoolmates while i stay home to recuperate. Oh, the fever please go away.
I am currently on a mission to curb my nasty temper and be a happier person. I've been angsty lately, for the past few months or maybe a year. My temper got a lot worse, like a lot. I've become a lot more cynical and judgemental, sad and regretful to say. And i've become a lot more skeptical in friendships, which i won't conclude as a bad things. We fall, and we learn. That's life, it's never pretty and sweet all the time. Today is day #2 of curbing temper, and it's been going extremely well. Mm it's too early for substantial results, but i dare say i'm happier like that.
And one good way to end my night is a message from vera bby.
''... hahah i wanna hang out with yall everyday too. Makes me happy. Like happy family! Hahah"
Vera, fiona, kirk. These three are currently and has always been my happy pills. True friends, and that's what i want. As for another close friend, i'm just waiting for us to make things better. Above all, i love y'all.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
and my precious vera, thank you for everything. i luv you. it'd be perfect is fi was there too, i miss you and luv you too.
oreo cheesecake he baked
It may not mean anything to any of you, but it means a great deal to me. Many of you don't know daniel well enough but i do which is why i appreciate these things he does for me. He isn't the kinda guy who'd get down to work in the kitchen or to any diy stuff. In fact, how many guys do you know who actually does that. The effort that he put in the buy the ingredients for the cake in the supermarket, the afternoon he spent to make the cake, and others. It is very unlike him to do such things, super unlike. The fact that he remembers i like oreo cheesecake and handmade cards and got down to doing it just makes me appreciate him so much more.
Kirk twin, you're another gem to me. and i love you. i'll be here for you like how you always have been there for me.
When i was lying dead like a log on his bed at 8am, he woke me up to tell me that he's going to school for his attachment and gave me a kiss on my forehead. I woke up and walked him to his door, gave him a long tight hug in my most sleepiest mode ever.
You see, these are the things i enjoy the most. For 4 days 3 nights, i have you by my side to sleep and to wake up to. Almost everynight, i will pat him and talk him to sleep and every morning, i will be awoken with a kiss on my forehead and a pair of beautiful eyes looking at me arise, embracing my morning in the most wonderful way ever. Just being able to spend 4 days with you can be a great birthday itself. I love you, and you wonder what my birthday wish was about. You say you don't believe in birthday wishes, i don't too but i will take any chance for us to last.
Of course, my wish wasn't just about him. I got a little greedy with god, and made two wishes. One about him, and another about my loved ones.
I won't say this birthday was the best out of every others but this birthday made me see a lot of things i need to see. Reality and truth slapped me hard in my face on my 19th, but now that i'm a year older i will deal with this truth with courage and strength.
All i can say is, i don't want to waste time on people/things who don't even bother.
Some things i can salvage for old times sake, but for others i am willing to let go simply because i don't see genuinity in you or our friendships.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
K so that was pretty much my thurs. Yesterday i went to buy stocks for juicemarket but there's hardly any nice stuff so i have to go somewhere else later to hunt! Headed to D's school for lunch and then to his place to crash. Now, we really treasure each day we get to spend together because his attachment plus my other school/work commitments are draining out time and energy out. So yesterday was definitely a day well spent. We crashed for 3 hours straight, had dinner at his place, sat at his sunken lounge to chitty chitty bang bang for 2 hours. There's something about us when we are together i can't describe. Everything else but him seems like a blur when i'm with him.
And i told him that, it's pretty important to have someone whose face you like. No, i'm not talking about finding or having a handsome boyfriend or pretty/hot girlfriend. I don't believe in that. Looks were never really important to me since long time ago. What i mean is, a face you like. I've found it, and i realise even more how important it really is. It makes me stare in admiration for seconds/minutes. It still looks pleasantly nice to me even when his hair's in a mess after soccer or gyming, or when he wakes up look groggy. It's still the face i like. Of course, deep within and beneath, there are more important things like our chemistry and his character.
Anyways i'm meeting cailing soon for lunch +stock shopping + own shopping. Then i'mma head home to study while she works, and meet her and other friends again tonight to party. It's beeen supah long since i zouked and i can't wait to see all my close friends! yummerz.
Tmr's my birthday, and i really don't feel anything at all. In fact, ever since i was 15(?), i totally stopped getting excited over my own birthday already. Hahah. But i'm just excited to spend the day with D tmr. My wish list/ present list for my birthday : none. I don't need any material gifts from friends or family cos i prefer getting them myself. It'd be just fine if yall wish me, write me a card with messages inside, and for me to spend some time or have dinner with close friends. And, i really wish this time my mum will remember my birthday cos she forgot last year :x
k tata, i gotta bounce to meet bb. have a nice weekend kitties , xx!
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Youre on my mind more than I may show
Youre in my heart more than you may know
And the last thing that I want,
Is to you to fall apart.
To you I will be clearer,
I want you to remember.
In each tear
Theres a lesson, (theres a lesson)
Make you wiser than before ( wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
In each tear (each tear)
Bring you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what your meant to be
We cant change the things,
That we done thats in the past.
But fighting wont get us anyway.
So if you want, Heres my hand
Every night there is one thing I do
I bow my head and pray for you (pray for you)
And the last thing that I want,
Is for you to fall apart
To you I will be clearer
I want you to remember
Monday, July 05, 2010
her eyes are the size of pamela anderson's missiles haha.
Sucha great night with daniel last night. (: we're always laughing 24/7 whenever we're together.
oh wells, anyways i gotta catch the doctor soon. tata.