Tonight was a rough night for me , but made me reflect alot. Thank you Joelf , cheny and sanji for talking to me. Some things i wouldn't have realised if you hadn't told me. I will make changes where it's appropriate , and maybe some things i disagree , not just yet. I hope you guys understand that some things i do are just the way i am and i don't wanna change it , but i know there are still things i need to change (: and i will. I also understand that everything yall said and did was all for my own good. I still love you guys just as much , no doubt.

I feel that i have to say this if not i'll never get past my night. Maybe sometimes the image i portray to people are very bad , but i hope people won't judge me just from my blog. Who doesn't judge , and who doesn't get judged? No one. Put yourself in one's shoes. What if someone talks bad behind you just cos of the things that you write in your blog when there's more to meet the eye and more behind this screen called the superficial media. I don't devote myself easily to anyone , because if you were to ask me who are the people that i truly love and call my bestfriends are lesser than the number of fingers you have on each hand. I treasure most people in my life although i know some come and go. I don't like building a shield against anyone because i choose to believe that everyone is beautiful in their own way, so let me sink into your personality first before telling myself if you're the good or bad. Correct me if i am wrong , but were you first close to a stranger? No , because the word stranger says it all. And how did bestfriends and goodfriends come along? Because they all started out being the strangers/acquaintances. Friendships have to be nurtured by trust and love through time. Therefore , if you see me dedicating posts/short paragraphs to people i barely know for months , that is the start of building a friendship. I don't wanna guard myself against anyone that comes along because they might be friends you are closest to in future. I'm not flirting or seeking attention from guys when i do such stuffs. When these people are there for me , and always making sure that i am alright all the way , how can i not be appreciative of them? If they have ulterior motive , time will tell but for now , i want to believe in every goodness in every single soul. I may have alot of guy friends in my life , and some get the misconception that i am prolly flirting alot just cos of the many photos we take and the frequency of meeting up. Why must people think narrowly? There's something called platonic friendships. If you have opposite friends who love you as a friend without any ulterior motive , why can't i? Why can't i have more? I have girlfriends who love me as much , so we're lesbians? Ridiculous , isn't it? There are so many things that i don't write in my blog because i don't see the need to explain the details of how simple a friendship i have with my guy friends. I'm explaining so much because i don't want to hear false accusations anymore , not from strangers , not from friends , not from goodfriends , or even friends who should know me inside out. Blog is an outlet for people to write whatever they want and whatever they do not wish to write. It's that superficial , so accept it.

Sheng and i will always be the closest , and nothing or no one will come between us. So whatever that's going through your mind , it better be parallel to mine. You know why i am right? Because i am in this relationship and i know best. The second person who knows best is not any one of you , but Sheng.

No matter what , always remember , there's more to meet the eye.

On a brighter note , i met up with jee , bosco , natasha ning and all. We sat down to talk and take photos(: didn't do much. Leo and lun met me to cab back. They came over to my place for awhile to charge their phones. Leolun are sheng's bestfriend which makes them mine too. Really appreciate them alot , for persuading my mum for somethings and always making me feel blessed.

Talked to bestie alist who made me feel so so so much better (: i love you bestie.

My bestest friend.

Peektures.

My favourite photo of the day. I think it just looks good (:

JeevanJoel , LeonBosco , JamesPerry , DannyValdes.

"My homes. Homes that i find comfort and joy in. Homes that i'll go back to no matter what, crying or laughing. Homes that provide me the anchor of love , shelter and security. "

These boys , they have been making my days. Meeting up for dinner , chill together , play cards , heart to heart talks , doing crazy things together. The way they carve a home in a me.

Debbie dearie came over to my place after useless PW lecture yesterday. Yknow how it feels like when there's only girls , they get crazy. Say crazy things , do crazy things. We changed into our slackies , and really lied all over my room using the lappy , talking about friends & boys , taking weird and unglam snapshots , cooking maggie mee for that buzzing bee et cetera.

I'm glad i talked to bee about all the stuffs i did. I was flipping through his letters while she was sleeping , and goodness , i missed that boy. Sheng knows about it and he's pretty much fine with it. I wish i didn't delete his number off my contacts so i can call / text him just to know how he's doing cos currently i'm totally clueless about him. I don't know if he's still studying in acjc or have already left school or whatnot. I want to know. But yes , these just matter a tad cos definitely , i'm more concerned about my loverboy.

Anyhoos , bee and i left for charliechan's tuition. Ballz , he kept calling me a joke just cos i answered a few questions wrongly -.- Hahah danny and i were messaging then and i told him about it. He got so worked up he sounded like he was gonna beat the hell outta cc. Hahah , i'm really glad to have friends who care about me , but still no violence please! :D

Pandebbie.

she likes this photo cos my room looks messy -.-

meeee and anabelle.

Leo buzzed me during tuition to ask me to go down to his place for dinner , and so i did (: Leo and greg prepared dinner while i just helped around a little here and there. Lun , as usual , was snoozing away. & Sheng came down after playing soccer with my bestie&co. Leo and greg are really good cook , though they take centuries to make a meal.(:

Y'know , it felt like a family dinner. I'm very attached to them. To having leo and lun like my brothers , to having greg always making good food for us and for being just him ; cute and full of shit. To having Sheng as my loverboy. They pretty much sum up to a whole lot of happiness to me. They are already like my family(: While they reminisce the barker times , i was indulging in food food food. I love the dishes they prepare (:

Greg has that "apologise to me now" face. haha

That's leo for you . Smoking even when cooking.

I was asking them to quit smoking yesterday , but i guess it's hard for them for some reasons. Just hope that they'll at least cut down , cos i wanna live my whole life with them. I don't want them to have black lungs :/ which leo thinks he already has :/

Greg's creation.

Gregory Ng. (:

Hahah have you seen this other side of leo?


Orighty , i think he'll kill me for putting these unglam photos of him. He actually said "you're gonna put the photos in your blog? let me wax my hair first."

Obviously , he didn't la. Hahah.

Bestie alist called me when i reached home , and boy you have no idea how my heart cringed when you sounded like that. I hope you're feeling better today and i hope what i did and said helped. Just so you know , i was tearing as i heard your voice tremble , when i see that strong side of you crumble. Y'know , God has a plan for your life. He'll always be there for you like how i always will be there for you. Please don't suppress and keep such things to yourself please promise me. You'll never be a burden , never will. I love you and anadee together. I love seeing the smiles on you guys , hearing sweet stories of yall. Yall always have me here at any point of time , always having me looking out for the both of you. (:

Manfee boy and i talked after that. Thank you boy , for asking me if i am alright all. Didn't even know you read my blog (: Hahah actually i read yours but it's always the same old post! UPDATE Pleaseeee. Hokay , i'll see you real soon , maybe later! Go pierce your nose with me k? (:

Hahah yes anyways , i want a nose piercing (:

Yea and i talked to Sheng after that , and i was already half asleep cos it was about 2am. Sorry boy :/ See you tonight/tomorrow! loveee

i s aa c says:
miss chong you have to check this video out


http://youtube.com/watch?v=52d20PK_Kyk


Sophia. says:
isaac you may not know , but you always appear when i'm down. your song it found me well

i s aa c says:
(:


i s aa c says:
well then im always here for you


i s aa c says:
nothing has and ever will change


i s aa c says:
cheer up dear


Sophia. says:
thank you , i really don't know what else to say


i s aa c says:
you dont have to say anything


i s aa c says:
just cheer up


i s aa c says:
((:


Sophia. says:
i love you isaac. thank you.


i s aa c says:
i love you too miss chong









Y'know , i promised bec that i'll use bigger fonts now for her convenience (: so here you go darling.

I had such a rough night last night , but my friends never ever fail to be there for me.

Cheny , bestie Joelf , Jeevanlove , Jamesy boy , Isaacchan , Leon , Syed , Fionadarling for always talking to me to make sure they help to solve the problem i have and to make sure i'm really alright , and Manfee who made my night by his jokes. What more could i ask for? Without them , i'll just blast hard with no one cushioning my fall , with no one helping me to recover.





Last night especially ,



Thank you joelf for talking to me about sheng & i while walking me home. You've never failed to always be there when i need you so. Always giving me the best advices ever , and always listening to my woes. No one can do a better job than you. Thank you also , for treating me like your baby sister. You're always getting me sweets , sending me home , making sure i have enough to eat when i'm with you. That's what i call a bestfriend. A friend who shares my joy and sorrows. i love you bestie , and nothing in this world will change this fact.





Thank you Jamesy boy for "listening" to my cries , making me feel much better. You have , also , always been there for me ever since the day i knew you. Thank you for the words you said to me last night , i'll embrace them dearly. Thank you for putting up with my ranting although you have your own fair share of troubles too. I can't thank you enough for the way you're treating me. I hope my words they find you well , like how yours found me last night.





Thank you Jeevan Joel for talking to me on the phone last night , for pushing me back to where i should belong. You always make me laugh no matter how down i am. (: Thank you for being the pillar of my strength. Once again , you made me strong to face the harsh reality in life. I know i can't do that without your help.I'll always be here for you , whenever wherever.

I love you boy , more than you ever imagine.





Thank you Isaacchan , my dearest dearest dearest friend. Now you're the one who have stick with me for years , and been through every single setbacks with me in my life. You know very well what we've been through together. We might not talk as often now , but you always know it when i'm sad. Always letting me know you're there for me , yesterday , today and forever. You're one person whom i believe when you say forever. Thank you for being the isaac i've always loved. I love you eyesac my closest friend.





Thank you Sheng for understanding the way i felt , for accepting my expectations. I'm still holding on to you despite the many differences because i love you more than i dislike the flaws. If given no choice , i still would accept you and our relationship the way it is because losing you will be the greatest pain and loss in my life. Y'know , many times , i always look at you without saying anything because these thoughts they're running through my mind. These thoughts of saying i love you spoken inaudibly , saying i never ever want to lose a gem like you spoken inaudibly. I hope the next two years , they do us justice. I hope the next two years , they transform us into something the world can't reach. I hope these two years , i hear words of godlike faith from your mouth. I hope these two years , they show us what's right for us. I hope these two years , they do me and you some good. I love you so much , that even two years may feel like two decades , i'm willing to wait.






God has been extremely generous to me , you see why.

Anyhows , i felt so blissful yesterday! (: I went to Rp after school with the intention to study with xw. Met up with Veradearest and bec.pork ! I was so friggin' happy to see the two girls cos i miss them so very much , especially bec whom i haven't seen for months. Miss the old times with bec and julene. Teehee. Had lunch with them , and i bumped into Leon see boyyyy. Hahah went to look for Aj too. Wanted to surprise jononggy boy but he wasn't in school :/ poop , i miss him so much and he promised to meet me soon. Then i went to the library to study with cheny and her friend. It was super unproductive , that sucks :/ Wanted to look for natnat but she didn't answer my call. Leonsee came to look for me after lesson , bought me drinks and food. What a nice boy he is (: i love being loved , who don't? haha. Left off with Joelf in his friend's car. Joelf sent me home from cck and we talked alot. I love spending time with people i loveeeeee.

Hahah & today , it has to be a nice day cos jonong talked to me online , told me he missed me and stuff. It's jon ong my twinky friend , how can i not be happy?! Maybe i'm gonna meet leolun later (: so ciao!

j. says:
meet up ro smthh (:

Sophia. says:
yea ! (: will do. and you better not be lazy to leave the house when i call you ah

j. says:
ill try my best

j. says:
my dear friendd

j. says:
il ttyl or smth k

j. says:
im gonna watch tv for aabitt

j. says:
take careee (:

j. says:
<3>

Sophia. says:
lots of love too! (:

I HATE PW , hate the person who invented it.

I've been thiking these few days and i've never felt any worse than this.
Y'know how much i love you , how much i won't ever wanna lose you.
I'm sorry baby i can't help but to feel this is not working.
We've lost all the suspense and all the happiness we used to share.
All the excitement and anticipation to meeting each other.
You and i were made a pair , an inseparable duo.
Y'know all my dreams and faith are built on the basis of love we have.
Togetherness , we've built a fortitude but now the walls are crumbling.
No matter what , i will never give up on this relationship , on our memories , on our past , on our present , on our future , and most importantly you.
Maybe we've done so much in this one and half years that everything now seems to be a bore.
I don't wanna lose this , don't wanna lose myself to someone else , don't want to lose you.
Just call my name , and i'll be there.
Just a cue from you , i'll rebuild a foundation with you right from scratch.
I just want us to be stronger than yesterday , than what we were a year ago.
I love you sheng , and i hope these words they find you well.

I had a heart to heart chat with nanadarlin' last night till 2am. She's one girl who will never fail me , always listening to what i have to say and giving me best advices. I'll never hide anything from her , and never lie to her (: We were talking about every single thing in our life last night.

About many things no one ought to know.

She is indeed my love.

Anyhows , school term break has started and actually it is a study break for us to prepare for mid year exams so oh wells , no fun.

Gp paper on friday was pretty alright , thank god (: Went over to amanda's house in the evening for tennis' barbeque. We had such a fun time altogether, especially with elton wongyang and sam putting up really hilarious dramas. Camwhored quite a bit too (:

Sam , nat , myself and mimi (:

us , yet again (:
hahaha.
Elton's sister and i (: so sorry , i can't remember your name! :/
He marinated chicken wings for us. He's the man. haha
Tennis group photo (:

Sam and i!
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sam and elton (:
wongyang's spastic face! haha


fangzi and i (:
(:

We drank quite a bit (:

YAYY AGAIN AGAIN!

(:




Fangs , soap and manda!

fangs , manda , soap , mimi and nat.
After the bbq , i went to Kap to look for Leon and Sheng. I had craving for mcflurry , and boy , y'know how it feels when you satisfy your craving.? It's awesome + awesome!

Saturday , 24th May!

Sheng and i went to meet elton , nat , elroi , geri , aj , xw , keith& his girlf at cine. Sat down and talk while Sheng and i had our lunch. They went to lido to watch movie while i waited for jee and jamesy boy to meet me.(: Grace , anna and a few others came too. Then leontay , ravinder and maryanne were there too. The world is so small and so coincidental. No one said anything about going there but everyone happened to be there , and almost everyone knows each other.

I like that feeling (:

Hahah.

I left with jeelove and jamesy boy to Far east plaza for some turkish icecream! (:

The turkish uncle's so cute i swear.

We sat around in far east, and bosco & co came over.

Some stuffs happened at night :/ bad stuff. Had such a rough night. I was so worried for jee and jamesy boy especially. Jee was so agitated all , james was having fever all. Ning and i were really scared that night. :/ But thank god , everything turned out fine.

Sunday , 25th.
Went shopping with mumsie and sister in town after church (: I didn't buy much but sis and mumsie bought alot. I don't know why , but that itchy hands for more bags and clothes suddenly disappeared yesterday. That's a good thing right? (:
Hahah. Met jee , danny & his brother and bosco. We sat down at spinelli , wasting our time doing nothing. I was in fact , in deep thoughts cos' spinelli brought back so much memories which i shouldn't be reminded of anymore. But anyways , after danny left, Bos jee and i had a heart to heart talk about everything. We promised to keep it to ourselves and we will , right? (: Bosco and i are two people that jee will never hide things from , and i like it that way. (: I love Jee and bosco cause they're really people you can count on.
mmkay , syed and his friend joined us. We played cards and boy , time passes real fast that way. Had dinner over at Syed's club at The pines , and shah told us about his life over dinner. I like dinner that way , simple and quiet. It was serene there , so we had an awesome dinner. Food was really good too (: Headed back to far east with the boys and i cabbed home soon after that.
Love those boys , cos they make me feel like a little sister in their eyes.
Love those boys , cos they're people whom i can rely on.
Love those boys , cos they are protective of me in a way.
Love my God , for planting new seeds into my life.

Ning just buzzed me to go town and look for them but i think i'll give it a miss. As much as i wanna spend time with them again , i think i've been neglecting my loverboy. (:

Leon and Sheng later , love.

LEOLUN , I MISS YALL!