sentosa on thursday (:
nice.
marina square after that.
pictures in friendster!
friday with xiaowei and then went to meet bestir joel ang till 8plus and headed to aunt niko's house.
stay over.
saturday ,
ate. cut hair. home. and dinner
I'M LAZY TO BLOG AND SOMEONE'S BEING SUCH A DUMBASS.
bitch.

the carefree ride of you life slams into a stone wall ; all those years of merely bouncing along ,
life taking you where you want to go ,
abruptly ends.



you put me in agony and gradually those lights that shone so bright , glimmered like a thousand unsympathetic eyes.
your answer was like a heavy weight pressing me into the floor , & honey i can't breathe.
you flashed me an impressed wag of the eye , and turned my wheels of life beautifully and magically.
only to find out i was merely written into another chapter of your life.
which people flips , read and forget.
you hit me with crushing realisation and sent a shiver of revulsion racing through.
i dread the way you looked at me ,
i dread the way you would feel me ,
and i dread the way you made me fall ,
cause we're more than just friends.
i snarled in a freeze-frame of grotesque horror , & baby where are you?
i feel like a hollow glass jug , so empty and dull.
just when i met you ,
my eyes flickered like a weak electric bulb cause you siphoned off all my energry ;
and oh i fell into your almighty arms.
i was taken aback and my throat was as dry as a parchment.



no matter how many times i lifted my face into the hot spray , i could not rinse the long day away.

maybe you won't believe , but i want to bask into this moment of happiness ;

okay , i went to khatib to study with my bestfriend today (:
apparently i was tempting alistair again with all the food (braces/)
it was fun studying with him.
eat/talk/study.
i had my menstrual cramp today.
it's damned bad.
okay , walked to khatib mrt, saw alvin and all.
boarded the mrt and saw janelle and friends.
haha.
went to alistair's house to get reader's digest and headed home.
okay. i'm super happy now!
i really am.
okay , i know i'm like naive and all.
I'M HAPPY.
she knows and that's enough.

went to citylink with baby alistair ytd , to study.
at gelare.
we had great fun.
i typed a long chunk of it ytd and my post just disappear ):
it was like a novel!
hahaa.
went to church this morning! :D
my menstruation is back.
hail it.
went to bukit merah with dad's side for lunch.
it was not bad.
but the staffs there are SICKENING! :)
then i went to tiong bahru plaza to meet him to get scary movie4 from him.
he couldn recognise me , WTH.
went to far east to shop with aunt niko and went to have dinner with mum's side.
that's my day.
reached home , benyeo rang me up and talk.
haha.
that stupid boy.
he's super cute la.
okay.
anyways , i'm gonna help my bestfriend do something.
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apparently there's like this pest who's being such a roadblock to my bestfriend's like.
rightfully , you should beong to cookie monster's bin.
don't be such a bitch please.
you know you're like a pisser hun.
"i hope no one comes in between us and that includes anyone."
LIKE HELLO BITCH , YOU'RE THE ONE COMING IN BETWEEN A CHEMISTRY THAT'LL SPARK BEAUTIFULLY.
how about making yourself scarce and stop making a fool of yourself.
you're so G-R-O-S-S.

paint this in my heart , will you?

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my life's a mess
Cause I'm
cos I couldn't love you any less.

You're beautiful,
that's for sure
You'll never ever fade
You're lovely
but it's not for sure.
That I won't ever change
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true
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i stood there all alone , just by my roadside.

you let go of my hand and all i did was to cry.

you told me the worst thing to do is to regret.

the path we took ; i didn't regret.

the love we pledged ; it was my paradise.

but my answer is my biggest regret.

you promised to stay if i stay.

& you'll be in unless i'm out.

you said you felt so attached to me and you'll never want to leave.

but you took a turn and alighted from my train 10days after you made these empty promises.

you said you feel like making me the happiest girl alive by giving me whatever i want.

baby , i'll be happy with you by my side.

& i'm proud of your self control.

(i'm sorry that i only reply you like 5months later.)

& baby , i loved our "last night"

i've said the truth and thanks for letting me know you loved it too.

i'm sorry i had no phone that night that you couldnt call me and went to sleep sadly.

and i'm sorry i didn't pick up your call in the morning cause i had already left for school.

i wished i was the scgs girl whom you thought was me ,

so i could see you everyday and i won't mind going to school with you first and then go to my school.

"i hardly wanna be apart.yeah.maybe this is the honeymoon period.but i promise i'll try my best to keep this relationship as lovely as possible.unless you walk away , i'll stay. unless you want out , i'm in,unless you do something really bad/naughty or there is a circumstance we can't be together , i'm here to stay.yeah. i love you loads baby"

tell me you meant all these.at least.

i did not spike your lemon juice in delifrance at taka .

cause you'd have stayed if i had spiked your drink.

"i really miss you so much. i was kinda sad after we hung up. i couldn't sleep for about half an hour after that.and i dreamt that you were on the phone.then i woke up.i thought i fell over the phone and so i ran to the phone and picked up but it was just the tone. HAHA!! i'm quite retarded right! ha! i'm crazy.crazy over you. you're my baby and i love you loads!!"

you lost half an hour of sleep , but i lost uncountable sleepless nights and i lost my baby.

"hey baby!if you wanna how much i love and care for you , count the waves. never ending? yeah , i know.your happiness has always meant more than mine. i love you."

there were no more sea breeze nor waves when you said goodbye.

and do you know i'm not really happy now , where have you gone to?

"every last drop ,

every last piece ,

i'm here with you

you're here with me."

i always want to be there with you , but you just seem so far away.

"anyways , i want to tell you for the 948673148th time that i love you. (: i think you're like sick of hearing me say it right? haha. well i DON'T CARE! i need to keep reminding you that i love you so you won't forget!"

how about telling me for the 948673149th times? i'll never be sick of it.

"i'll never think of hurting you.

it's much more fun just loving you.

i hope you can trust me so you and i will always be"

you untied our knot and let me go.

i know it's been a long time ago thing.

5 months have gone in a twinkle of eye for you.

but these 5 months left me crying and pondering.

when the sun rises , it feels like the same day.

cause part of me died when you left me.

i'm still waiting at the crossroad with my baggages in my hands.

waiting for you to come and pick me up and leave.

just you and me.

though there's another passenger in your car now ,

i'll wait.

maybe this day will never come.

but i'll just wait till my hair turns grey.

or maybe i'll a hitch another ride when i'm breathless and worn out.

i can't take the stong rays of sun shining hard on me.

and the stormy rains that are making me my tear glands break.

you've made songs in my heart and you'll be my sweetest reminiscence.

mungkin nanti.

(:decided to come online and take a break after a long hectic day
went to kap to study with xiaowei yesterday & today.
i was early today!LIKE DAMNED MIRACULOUS PLEASE :D
okay , we REALLY studied.
thanks to our shut mouth.
LIKE WOW RIGHT.
went for tuition.
all was good hun (:

might be out with celine tomorrow.
BABE ,HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
<3MISSES.

&NAOMIWEE , I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS.
I MISS YOU SO ,
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO!
I LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT!
HAHAHA.

:D
talked to isaac last night till i fell asleep.
I WAS LIKE STUDYING PLEASE.
and he was making me laughed so badly ; i dropped.
and stop it isaac , you know what i'm talking about.
HEHEHE.

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rushed home from sher's house to doll up for the dinner function just now.
was nearly late.
dinner was good.
& I SAW LI CHEN EN! (:
LIKE OMG OMG OMG.
he's damned cute can and he remembers me.
(:
he's the hottest thing in the whole world lah please.
i've not seen him since last december , which is flying long can.
okay , he's just wee cute and cheeky.
we went to watch cars together.
he rubbed me hands during the movie to make me feel warm.
AWWW , AINT HE SWEET.
gosh.
his parents sent me home.
they're very cute parents.
hahaha.
and when we were at the jurong town hall road , there was this steep slope.
which is damned scary + fun!
we were tugging our arms together and screaming la.
weeee fun!(:
and en is damned cute.
he was like ,"daddy , can you make another u-turn so we can play that again"
hahah!
and that cuteass didnt wanna let me off the car whei reached me block.
omg , he's drooling cute.
we took pictures in the car.
i'll upload it when i'm free! :D

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-JUMPS-
i'm meeting xiaowei at KAP tomorrow study then head down to tuition.
baby , i miss you!
<3

XIAOWEI, CELINE AND NATLIM!
hahaha.
a guy sent me this friendster message.



Subject:
Hey
Message:
You all came topman took photos b4 rite?



ROFL.
i'm at shermaine's place (:
doing damned homework.
gonna leave soon in the thunders):
going for movie and dinner with aunt niko and all! YAYA!

PEOPLE PLEASE GO AND PLAY THIS
GAME.
IT'S MAKING ME SO
HAPPY!
HAAHA!
IT'S SO FUN.
AND I'VE FINISHED SQUEEZING ALL ITS ZITS
IN 95 SECS.

Acne Be Gone

all time bitching partner <3

i looked like shit.

lol.

my money honey (:

we had a fun time sweet talking during esther's birthday.

:D

















I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS WOMAN (:
taken at the airport and my house.






it could have been a different night tonight ;
be it sophisticated or wild.
a wise decision hit me & i've decided to keep it a simple night.
; with my family and piano.

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CONVERSATION WITH MY MOST LOVED BITCH.



and your voice came sweeping through my mind. says:
you stupid boy. everytime also busy.

and your voice came sweeping through my mind. says:
last week of school hols

gabriel ashley; emotion regression. says:
i know you miss me.

gabriel ashley; emotion regression. says:
HAHA


indeed i miss gabriel(ashley) :D alot.
like all the times we bitched about EVERYTHING under the sun.
caucasians , ahlians and etc.
and he was so kinky, esp at starbucks.
LIKE HELLO , WE MISS YOU WEE LOADS.
so you better be at sentosa with us.
and you know some girls are bugging me about you.
"omg sophia. you know the guy in your friendster photo whom you wrote like bitching partner. LIKE OMG , HE'S FLYING HOT. omgomgomg -drools-"
and i'm like totally whatever.
okay , that was why i removed our little paint.
yeapps.
hotass , WO HAOXZX XIANGSX NIX WORRRSXXZX
:D

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YAY.
-SCREAMS-
mummy's discharging today :D
piano exam in less than a month ):
I'M PETRIFIED.

okay , i just got home from the hospital.

mummy's very poor thing in there ):

like after bunking in bangkok , i have to stay at aunt niko's house.

hahaha.

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SATURDAY , 10JUNE.

went to thomson with xiaowei to have roti prata-breakfast.

hey babe , i'm REALLY sorry that i was wee late.

& it aint finger count times.

went to macs to study after that.

our weird protocol.

MUST TALK FOR 2 HOURS AND DO SERIOUS STUDYING AFTER THAT (:

we did our planner.

oh beep , we have tuitions and all everyday ):

like , super busy.!

xiaowei left for dance and aunt niko came to pick me up.

went to visit mummy.

it felt more like a chalet :D

headed back to aunt niko's house. played carrom (:

and watched soccer.

slept :D

SUNDAY , 11JUNE.

okay , xxx sent me a message that made me laughed rolling on the floor.

hahaha!

i know you're feeling embarrassed over it , so i didn't type your name (:

but well , and the one _ _ _ _ _ in _ _ _ _ _ _ _ thing was damned cute.

hahaha.

went to church in regionD.

sat with shawna and xiaowei.

xiaowei and i kept laughing during service about _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.

kuala bear. ROFL.

went to do groceries with aunt.

we ended up buying lots of accessories.

hahaha!

i bought 4 ear studs and some hair thing (:

headed back.

played carrom again.

hahah!

people , please go to

mostfungames.com

and play the acne game.!

:D

super fun.

went to hospital.

bidded mummy with a warm hug and soft kiss.

headed back to my REAL HOME!

c-o-m-f-o-r-t-a-b-l-e!

and and and , alistair koh , my inbox is cramped with all your messages!

hahaha.

7 things that make me smile/happy.


1. rum and raisin ice cream
2.chocolate
3.playing with snow/foam.
4.cute babies.
5.surprises
6.carousel ride.
7.if you fulfil all of the above (:



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mother's hospitalizing.

& i've learnt alot of values.

i pray she'll get fine ,

cause mummy i love you.

o-la-la.

i'm back from bangkok.

omg , unexpectedly.. i <3>

they're so friendly and all.

on the other hand , the food sucks.

TOM YAM GOONG CAN SMELL MY ARSE.!

hotel was good.

shanice and sharyl were weee cute!

breakfast was yum.

at baiyoke sky and pathumwan princess.

oh my mother , i spent like a bucket of chee-ching.

& the rum and raisin ice cream was cheap and good!

i had cups of it (:

okay , i bought....

4sun dresses and 1 batik dress.
6 tops.
2denim shorts.
my yums undergarments.
10 pairs of earrings.(I HAVE 62 PAIRS OF EARRINGS AT HOME NOW!)
3bikinis.
3heels.
3bags.
4 belts.
ALOT OF CHOCOLATES AND MARSHMELLOWS.! :D
okay , i can't remember anything else.
massage and manicure were hella good.
BUT SOMEONE JUST SCREWED UP MY TRIP ):
ohyes , ALISTAIR KOH BESTFRIEND.
I BOUGHT YOU A SHINY RED BOXERS.
IT'S SUPER SUPER SEXY.
AND YOU MUST WEAR IT WHEN WE GO SENTOSA NEXT WEEK ALRIGHT!!
IT'S THE SEXIEST THING I GOT THERE (:
IT'S LIKE SUPERMAN.
hohoho.
and i watched x-men there.
like wth.. before the movie starts.. we have to stand and pay respect to their king.
and the movie only lasted for 45mins -.-

okay.
gwen and hillary and all are coming to my place now.
gonna swim swim swim later (:

CHENXIAOWEI ; i missed you like wee much okay! and screw that bloody basket. i'm meeting you and elf tomorrow! YIPPEE YAA YAA!

JOELF ; busy boy , finally can meet us huh. ever wondered that my brain's gonna explode cause i'm missing you far too much!

<3

ALISTAIR KOH ; i love you i love you i love you i love you bestfriend. it's our 7th year! hahahahaha. i know you love me you love me you love me. and you're so gonna look so sexy with that braces + my super ultra large sexy red boxers. be thankful to your god you've such a pleasing bestfriend! (:

i'm staring out of the sky,

praying that he'l walk into my life.

where's the man of my dreams.

i wait forever , how silly it seems.

how does he laugh , how does he cry.

what's the colour of his eyes.

does he even realise i'm here.

where is he

where is he

where is this beautiful man

who is he

who is he

who's gonna take me so high.

okay , schooled this morning for chemical practical.
it was super super fun!
but ms devi was also super super long winded.
she can yadaa and yadaa non stop(all about the same thing still.)
went to meet darling xiaowei to pass her something(:
went cwp with MY irvin to get her bubble tea.
I WANTED PASTAMANIA SO BADLY , THAT I WAS ASKING THE WHOLE WORLD ):
BUTS.
went to withdraw cash to get nasi lemak , almond longan and super rings!
isaac called me a glutton.
WHATEVER.
& isaac , i recorded our conversation!
about the moo ice cream , us slanging , and YOU BEGGING ME TO BATHE.
haha.
& i didn't know i sounded so kiddy.
OMG OMG OMG OMG.
like some 13 years old.
gonna leave for thailand on saturday.
and my baggy is very light! :D
okay , i don't know what else to say.
ANTHEA , I MISS YOU ALOT! (: