Happy birthday, me.
I'd always wanted simple birthdays, simple yet expressive cards, gifts that holds a meaning and not value. No one really understands why, but thank god daniel does after explaining to him. I shall share here why i don't want/appreciate lavish birthday parties and expensive gifts.
1. It's the thought that counts. [for friends, and somewhat good friends]
As cliche as this may sound, it's very true. If we are just friends or somewhat good friends, it would mean just enough for you to remember my birthday and wish me through sms, and maybe throw in a sweet little message. If you(good friends that is) can't even wish me, it shows how good a friend you are. To even know that you remember and bothered to whip out your phone to wish me, is a job done for me.
2. Time [ for close friends, and bestfriend]
These people are the closest friends i have, and again i don't need any material gifts. I just want to spend time with my close friends, have a little dinner or something. Just time. But i won't appreciate it if you're using i.e my birthday party to socialise or something.
I'd very much prefer diy cards, self baked cakes to premade cards. It just shows me a lot more.
3. Just wish me and show me you love me [family]
To me, it's very important that my family remembers my birthday and just wish me. And show me you love me, like this year, my sister made me a cake. I don't ask for anything materialistic from my family at all although they are the ones who can afford the most for the things i want. This year, i wasn't home for a few days for my birthday and mummy didn't text me happy birthday at all so i got really sad on the way home. When i got home, i saw a red packet on my dressing table and it says
"happy birthday kaykay, love mummy"
I was happy to tears because i'm really glad my mum remembers(she kinda forgot my birthday last year so it means a lot to me this year if she even remembers). I wasn't happy because she gave me money, but simply because she remembers. I really don't care the amount in the red packet. Be it $1000, $100 or even $10, i will be equally contented.
4. Love me and spend alone time with me [boyfriend]
I had came to realisation a few years back that oddly, the one thing that i must have with my boyfriend on my birthday, is a birthday dinner with just him. And again, i'll say no to any materialistic gifts. This year, it came stronger than ever before. I told D to not get me anything at all cos materialistic things will really just be part of all the materialistic things i already have. What? Get me clothes, accessories, bags, shoes, wallet which i can get it myself? What meaning does that materialistic gift holds after some time? It will just be part of my 'collection of bags' no?
D knows what matters most to me, and he executed it perfectly well to make me happy. You shall see more belowww (:
Above all and others, thank you Daniel Tan Susheelan for everything and your utmost love.
10th july - 11th july
Spent some time with my close friends and other friends at zouk. I kinda wish i didn't spend it at zouk, and i know i most likely never will want to but because this is kinda the only place to get all my close friends together. Thank you for spending time with me, you kitties who were there.
i love you bb.
and my precious vera, thank you for everything. i luv you. it'd be perfect is fi was there too, i miss you and luv you too.
Luv you gerri and nat, and i'm really glad we can still be close after what happened to me and S.Thank youuu elton for coming down too. <:
vera's lazer ink.
Headed back to daniel's house with him after clubbing.
And his first surprise for me is
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oreo cheesecake he baked
and big cards he made with photos.
It may not mean anything to any of you, but it means a great deal to me. Many of you don't know daniel well enough but i do which is why i appreciate these things he does for me. He isn't the kinda guy who'd get down to work in the kitchen or to any diy stuff. In fact, how many guys do you know who actually does that. The effort that he put in the buy the ingredients for the cake in the supermarket, the afternoon he spent to make the cake, and others. It is very unlike him to do such things, super unlike. The fact that he remembers i like oreo cheesecake and handmade cards and got down to doing it just makes me appreciate him so much more.
I kinda knew that i was gonna have oreo cheesecake for my birthday but i thought he'd have bought it instead of making it.
I love you daniel, and this may seem like an overreaction to you but trust me, i appreciate it alot.
11 July
Surprise from my friends, which kinda flopped because i'm too smart at guessing. Haha kidding, but it's really hard for me to get surprised.
Kirk twin, you're another gem to me. and i love you. i'll be here for you like how you always have been there for me.
That night, he stayed over at my place. And the next day, he brought me to donna carmella for my birthday dinner(:
they serve fine italian food. The pasta didn't wow me, but i sure loved the soup and salad. Oh, not to mention the ambience!
I was pestering him to go island creamery cos i was craving for their nutella ice cream. Heheh, after that we went back to my place to grab my clothes and we cabbed down to his place. Yes, i stayed over at his place that night again. Hahah.
When i was lying dead like a log on his bed at 8am, he woke me up to tell me that he's going to school for his attachment and gave me a kiss on my forehead. I woke up and walked him to his door, gave him a long tight hug in my most sleepiest mode ever.
You see, these are the things i enjoy the most. For 4 days 3 nights, i have you by my side to sleep and to wake up to. Almost everynight, i will pat him and talk him to sleep and every morning, i will be awoken with a kiss on my forehead and a pair of beautiful eyes looking at me arise, embracing my morning in the most wonderful way ever. Just being able to spend 4 days with you can be a great birthday itself. I love you, and you wonder what my birthday wish was about. You say you don't believe in birthday wishes, i don't too but i will take any chance for us to last.
Of course, my wish wasn't just about him. I got a little greedy with god, and made two wishes. One about him, and another about my loved ones.
I won't say this birthday was the best out of every others but this birthday made me see a lot of things i need to see. Reality and truth slapped me hard in my face on my 19th, but now that i'm a year older i will deal with this truth with courage and strength.
All i can say is, i don't want to waste time on people/things who don't even bother.
Some things i can salvage for old times sake, but for others i am willing to let go simply because i don't see genuinity in you or our friendships.
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