Every cloud has a silver lining.

Happy new year (??)

I don't want to be cliche and go about saying how sucky 2009 was and how good i think 2010 will be, and go into every small detail how 2009 has changed my life etc because think about it, every year feels the same. There's no need for new year's resolution to be penned down, cos you'll end up looking back tsk-ing yourself in disappointment. If you really want to start a fresh new chapter in your life, there's no need for an entry of a brand new year because they're just a gauge of days and time. If you have a resolution, a dream, an aspiration, a goal, then start working towards it now and don't give yourself a year to fulfil it. Just give yourself the amount of time you think you should fulfil it, not the amount you feel is a right closure to it.

I've always looked at life as a journey of lesson, every obstacle and setback as a stepping stone to becoming a stronger person, and every blessing as good memories. I don't know why i'm getting started on sheng, neither do i know how to but i'll jump straight to the point. The biggest blow to me throughout the year was not the break up, but it was the point i knew things could no longer be salvaged and break up seemed like the only solution. We had been through so much more than anyone could ever imagine, and i hate how people often jump to conclusion or draw judgements just by what they see or heard. I thought love was shared and connected by two people only and only we feel/understand fully what's going on. If you think by reading my blog, by being our friends or even relatively good friends, or by believing what you hear from others about us, that's probably just 1/100 of what you know or maybe none at all? People always said we looked cute/sweet together, and no doubt about that to a certain extent. But how much do y'all know when we had our bad times? when both of us cried our lungs out together? when we quietly went on a short break? when we had the same problem coming back again and again? We've never really told anyone(including good friends), much less write anything on my blog. And that's because i've always felt that love was sparked by two people, so let the ups and downs good or bad be shared by just these two special people.

Future is believing, and i believed. We both held on tight for three years no matter how doomed things could look. We died, revived died revived but for a long while... we died. I won't say what exactly happened or why we broke up cos i believe he still command a high degree of respect and privacy. Neither do i like cyber eyes to pry too much. So well, all i can say is that we both loved greatly but sometimes we can't be fed solely on love. commitment, mutual trust, faithfulness, compromising etc. They are components that form a happy relationship and i guess we were lacking a few. It was both his and my fault that things turned out this way, but i'm glad both of us are still friends now and we've moved on.

I loved you very much sheng, and i'm thankful for all that we were for the past three years. I wish you well, with all my heart. And yknow i will still hold your back as much as i can. You're a great character, and i believe you can be strong like an eagle - take flight and find a better nest or just take a rest.

Went to butter : school's out mtfkr to support manfehhh. had stomach ache that nightttt and i swear it sucks to be sick when you're clubbing halfway. Myra that crazy girl flew off to bali like 12 hours after the party.

love you myra (: and sufzy too! You two are like sisters to meee. The three of us have such different personalities yet somehow, we fit in such a divine way.(:

christmas 09 (:

my jiejie. haha.mum invited sheng over too (:

my little cousin sheryl who looks exactly like me when i was young. so she'll probably grow up to look exactly like what i am nowww. HAHA, freaky but quite coool.

went over to sheng's place cos i miss husky and lucky so damn much ): i want themmmmm

Went to hongkong for a short trip with sheng and his family on the 27th. Took A380 and it was such a disappointment really ): won't ever pay for that shit again. nowwww my pocket's damn dryyyyyy.

opposite our hotel (: pretty nice view right? we stayed in marco polo hongkong hotel this time round. Not baddd (: got h&m opposite us!

elroi, luci and his cousin also came!

HAHAH elroi, nonsensical forever.

leo, lun and their friend (:

meehee, my h&m heels which made me taller(or same height) as sheng!

our hotel room!

i miss leo ):

hongkong watami!

we drank everynight, and everynight someone gets drunk. The guys spent so much $$$ on drinks luhhh. HAHA i could buy like maybe 6 carts of things from h&m with that amount of money! damnnn, i love h&m. it's cheap and niceeee.

friends we made in hongkong(:

last day before leaving for airport.

so normal right -.-

In a nutshell, i kinda like theee hongkong trip cos i got to see leo. I miss him alot noww, and thank you for taking care of me when i'm there. You're always like a brother to meeee, come back nowww! Elroi and i also got slightly closer cos of htht, which is good (: got to know luci and his cousin also. Sheng and i felt pretty weird out at first but we're fine now! H&M shopping is damn goooood. Haha but i'm quite sick of hongkong now alreadyyy so maybe i won't go this year if leo's coming back!

Oh wells,

ok i'mma trim my hair at greg's dad's shop and dye my hair today! Ciaoooo