@sophiachong, get well soon!

I'm down with fever again, ikr?! Faster fight the virus and get well sooooon! I really want to recover asap so i can meet my girlfriends before i go bangkok! I misss them a hell lot:/ fiona, vera, angel, cailing and jiayi. Suppose to meet joan, sufz and myra this week too so fever pleaseeee go away!
And, i wanna spend proper time with D too. i made him upset today, and i feel bad :/
siannn. sick=alot of free time= thoughts run wild= think about inappropriate stuff and stuff i shouldn't think at all.

Now the day is turning into night
And everything is still going right
There's no way you can stop me this time
Or break this spirit of mine
Like the stars above I'm gonna shine
Anything I want will be mine
Tonight I'm gonna have a good time
Call a few friends of mine
'Cause I'm loving life
And tonight's for feeling...

Yesterday saw us chilling at home with oven heated rich chocolate muffin, surfing facebook together and a quick dress up to hit to town. It's not noticeable in photos but i had a case of swollen eyes due to some weird eye infection which happens very often to my sister and i, so i didn't really wanna worsen it with eyeliner... so i just stuck those fake eyelashes with a super thin line of glue together with red lipstick and a thin layer of foundation[which kinda made me a little too whitein pictures esp in the 1st one]. Slipped into my 14$ maxi dress and brown havaianas, pulled my plaited hair across my forehead, +3rings, 1 necklace and we left my place in 502 double decker.

We had dinner in ps ichiban sushi with mummy's vouchers and were in comtemplation if we should catch a late movie. Last night, the whole stretch of orchard road was filled with street performance and charity donations. Honestly, it kinda pissed me off mildly cos the street performances were more of substandard filler than anything. And for those "charity donations" who won't stop following your back after walking 7 metres with you, considering that half of them are scammers(one of my friends just got scammed yesterday fyi, and i have friends' friends who are such scammers) just put me off endlessly. Anyhows, met jiayi and milton for a while to catch up and it's always a joy to see that bubbly girl(: Daniel and i ended the night with the $1 traditonal cone alongside with silly games like the-15th-person-who-walks-pass-will-be-how-your-future-spouse-looks-like. Hahah, try that with your friends or something. I swear yall will crack up at the kinda "husbands/wives" yall will be getting.

On a super random note, i've decided to keep my hair a tad longer and dye it reddish brown sometime soon and get bangs or sideswept bangs. Once my bangs grow out, i will keep super long fringe with long long thick straighter hair and maybe try a different colour after that! (: Grow grow grow hair!!!

Gotta work later from 7pm-12am ): but can't wait to see dear veraaaaa!

i fainted in my kitchen today, like a real unconscious thing. Thank god mummy was at home, if not i could have --------- or something. it's very scary, yet funny. I didn't even know i was unconscious, it just felt like i was in another world(very very messy and scary world with lots of cars hurling at me, weird beings hovering around me). I didn't felt the need to wake up cos i didn't even know i was in unconscious state. So imagine, no one being there i could have been lying on the floor trembling like a dog for the whole day. Everything happened within 2 mins, and i swear it felt like forever. Mummy shook me and held me to wake me up, and i got awoken by her calling me. The first thing i said was "what am i doing here, i thought i was at the sofa. i want to sleep". I couldn't recall anything that happened after i got up from the sofa until after a few minutes. Sighhh, i didn't know fever can cause people to faint.


Oh wells, it was really damn scary and i don't want it to happen again. And yknow what, life's really unpredictable so live everyday like it's the last. Thank you daniel, for putting other things aside and coming to nurse me again. I really wanna get well soon so i can go out to do many thingsss! Besides, i'm leaving for bangkok in 8 days' time so i neeed to recuperate now! Working tomorrow from 8.30pm-1.30am, hope i don't faint or anything :x keep me in your prayers earthlings, and you guys take care too!

Greatest joy in littlest things.

Went to find vera at tea party on her first day of work(on my off day haha so i spent 4 days straight there)!(:

Past few days were spent at tea party working and accompanying vera at work. Today was my off day, so i went down to D's house to "nurse" that sick boy. Then, we headed down to tea party to give vera moral support on her first day of work. Yayyyy, i hope we get to work together sooonzzz :D anyways, chittyx2 bangx2 with D, aglio olio+choco chip scones for dinner(:

I'll be there again tomorrow -.- my fifth day in a row.

zee and daniel should be coming downnnnnnnnn so yay, i won't be so bored.

11 more days to bangkok!! :D

AND I'M STILL BROKE, AND THE PERSON HASN'T RETURNED ME THE $XXX

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Goodbye bunnies, gonna crash!

Come say hi to me and spice up my day! (:

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine, oh, oh oh oh
Do what you want but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me, oh, oh oh oh

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

hahah D has kuku hairstyle noww. Met him at cine for lunch today and he sent me to work after that!

So, guess where i'm working at?? (:

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HAHAH come visit me ok! It's at sixth avenue centre. They got awesome tasty scones and tea!! And, my favourite prawn aglio olio. Heh, just come down and say hi and spice up my day! (: I'm working on sunday 6pm-12am!

I'm very very tired now, and i'm on the phone with vera talking about balenciaga. Oh love(:

Hahah k gotta crash sooon, nighty bunnies!

#1 What i do when i'm bored as hell.

So, what do y'all do when you're all alone at home for one whole day? Hungry, bored and angsty. Hahah share with me, so next time i have new ideas to kill boredom when i'm bored at home!!

:D

Here's my day ok.

Woke up. Brush teeth. Reply mails. Verify payment. Youtube. JuiceMarket stuff. Eat 2 biscuits. Laze around. From 12nn -6.30pm?

And i decided that life at home should get a bit more interesting so i whipped out my make up and clothes and play dress up! Yay, not?

I just wanted to try a different make up look and i never really dare to do it when i go out cos i'm afraid i'd look like thrash. So yes, i put on my falsies without eyeliner at all and wiped on some chanel red sample lipstick which i got quite sometime ago. Decided to try the front braided thing on my forehead and my sister's fake brown ponytail too!! (: Hahaha honestly, it was quite fun.

No one really know, but i had always wanted nice long straight brown/red ponytail with all my fringe up.

how do i look? i quite like it and i'm more determined to keep my hair long already(:

my heart-shaped lip
haha papy came home and i decided to snap one with him too!

I feel sorry for you if you don't like my face. Hahah but too bad, i was really x99 bored ttm! Give me ideas so i can kill my boredom a different way the next time!

Anyways, i should be starting work tomorrow ): FML.

i swore to myself that i'll not work after working at candle last year cos i really hate being ordered around and working within certain restrictions/constraints. I swear i hate it but i'm damnnnnnnnnnn broke now and i need $$$ very badly. I transferred $xxx to a wrong account and now end up i need to use juicemarket's money to pay for bkk hotel, and juice account now is only left with $xx. Damn pathetic. Cannot buy new stocks, cannot launch collection---> no money for bangkok. I'm going there in less than 3 weeks' time and i have $0 for my expenses there so i neeed to work. Sighhh ): never felt so stressed for so long.

Hopefully after i come back from bkk, things for juicemarket will take a turn. I wanna change the website layout to be nicer and more organised, make the photos nicer and more professional, bring in nicer and more exclusive clothes yadadada but i need $$$ and a lot of help now ): in fact, i want a fresh face to model for juicemarket too cos i'm damn sian of looking at my own face. I cannot pose for nuts and i'm not like those pretty hot models with nice body and flawless complexion etc etc.

Oh wells ): sorry for ranting. This period of time, just sucks for me now. I just wanna go bkk with D asap, with cash of course!): i kinda want to ask my family for money but noo, i feeeeel damn bad cos mummy has already given me enough. AHHHH stressballzzz stressballzz.

On a side note, went to cailing's house on fri night and headed to bosco's house together for rico's birthday party! (: it really felt awesome to see old friends again etc etc. Saturday was spent with fiona vera angelyn at watami for lunch, and D surprised me with ice cream at night. Sunday was spent at jurong point starbucks doing juicemarket stuff and surfing fb while waiting for D's lunch break. (: Nice weekend!

K i shall crash noww. take care bunnies!

Behind these hazel eyes.

I like taking long walks because it gets me thinking. I like night breeze to air conditioned rooms because i like the tranquility it gives. I'd rather sit at the outdoor starbucks area and sip of my favourite caramel frap then to sit in a cold hard room. I believe that love exists, but i don't believe in forever/always because the only constant is change. I believe in people, believe that everyone is good natured just that they succumb to evil/wrongdoings under certain circumstances. Don't get me wrong, i don't love everyone. That'd be a chore, and it might take my lifetime doing that. I only love certain people and i really hope you know who you are. If i used to say i love you and no longer say it anymore... trust me that i still love you in some way or another. Circumstances might have changed, we may no longer be friends or lovers but i still love you for what you had been in my life and i'll be eternally grateful for the vital role you had played.

I like coffee and tea, fruits and juices, small bites and pastas. I have a major softspot for gummy sweets, chocolates and desserts. I have a after-meal tendency, which is a change of taste. If i take laksa for dinner, i want some icy cold desserts after that to change the laksa taste. If it was fish & chips, i'd probably crave for chocolate ice cream after that. Aglio Olio then chocolate souffle or pinna cotta. Evidently, my life is incomplete without food. I'd prefer chilling out at a bar than getting sweaty in a club. I prefer long deep conversations to the beat of R&B. I believe that destiny is ours to create, future is ours to mould. I detest the sight of seeing someone just leeching on their parents' money or reputation. It puts me off to no end. I am not a talkative/people person since young. I'd be reading a book on a couch in a corner while my cousins play, and till now i hardly talk a lot whoever i am with. I like my own space, being in a little bubble doing my own things listening to my own playlist. If i feel that you're asking me a stupid question, i won't even hesitate to reply. If you're talking to me about something on a different level which i feel is undeserving of any response, that'd be what you're getting. I tend to look up when i walk, and people think i'm cocky. But... it's because i get too engrossed looking at things on top, like the sky the building the aeroplanes. Or maybe sometimes i'm too consumed in my own thoughts i look like i don't give two shits about the surrounding. I know, i know.. that i send off a bad vibe. A cocky, arrogant, fierce, bitchy vibe. No i'm not making these up, it's all from my friends' first impression which has changed over time. I really wish i had a friendlier face and a nicer smile because i really don't think i'm cocky or any sort, substantiated by my friends too. However, there are things which can light up a smile on my face. Carousel ride, snow, dogs, babies or toddlers, music, sweets/chocolates, just seeing my close friends. A garden of flowers will do the job too, not a bouquet or a stalk. Taking a shower instantly cools me down too, taking long walks alone at night or sitting somewhere by myself staring up into the starry sky calms my soul too.

Anger for me might not be so bad a thing, because i work best when i'm angry.

So, how much do you think you know me? These are just 1/1000 of me, and the rest of me remains a puzzle unsolved. Sometimes, i myself can't even unravel mysteries about myself. But i guess that's what makes life interesting... is that more often than not, there are things about ourselves that we aren't even aware of.

I'mma put an abrupt end to this entry.

Juice 12

Juice 12 launched

start shopping at http://juicemarket.livejournal.com/9264.html#cutid1

kinda regretted choosing the black background /: makes the pictures look messy. sigh.

Magic tricks make the world disappear.

[Dinner with isaac and jiayi(:]

There's a sudden outburst of emotion after a strange night of talking to D about people antics and life. I can comprehend yet unable to tolerate the ways of life sometimes, how superficial it can get and how some people can treat life like a cheap piece of wood.

Inevitable it is, it's annoying how people are almost entirely moulded by the environment they are in and the people they hang out with. I don't mean to sound self-righteous, so pardon me if i do at any point of time. I honestly detest the sight of seeing someone i know who was a nice little angel morph into someone who's completely different from whom i knew she/he was. I remember this being the reason why a certain close friend of mine and i falling out.

People who are nice, simple, genuine, sincere, have self-respect, and are selfless ; someone who just stands out in the crowd in a non-superficial way. I really like people who are like that, and i'm sure many others do too even sometimes we ourselves don't have such attributes. And sometimes, when people like that are fed with unhealthy attention or try to be someone who can blend in better with the supposedly "cool" crowd, they morph into someone who may be always be in the limelight in people's eyes but no longer touch humans' hearts. Saddening, no?

Why can't we just appreciate being ourselves, being what god has given to us? Why can't we embrace who we really are, beings that people first fell in love with and will not fall out of it? I just abhor how fame and attention can totally change someone. I know it's inevitable for some slight changes and that's perfectly fine, but when you look at a friend with still the same face but no longer shining from inside like how he/she used to... yknow that it's not fine at all.

Like i said, we do not even own traits we like in others... so i'm just saying.

On a brighter note, i had a wonderful day with D just watching law abiding citizens, having dinner+icecream+grape vinegar juice+jagabee, and having htht in the dark.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

~Author Unknown

Went to zouk on wed night with cailing, sam, jaime and her friends(: Saw a lot of other friends there, and some old friends. it really felt good(: That night was packed like sardines, fun but hot(like the sweaty kinda hot), mad but tiring. My legs hurt like a dog when i reached home.

I realise how much i miss y'all after seeing y'all that night. See y'all next week ok? Luv.

bb ♥ . Hheh went shopping/stocks buying with cailing yesterday, and i totally love my own loots and the upcoming collection (:

on the way back with myra.

x. Bangkok tickets are finally booked but myra and abs are not coming with us anymore :/ stupid budget airlines are not even budget. I freaking booked the ticket for >$200 which i've never paid this amount the past few times i went bkk. urgh.

x. my holiday is very boring. i want to get out of this place asap, and maybe never come back again. I kinda just wanna bury myself with juicemarket(clothes clothes clothes yumm)

x. i'm a happier person now, but not enough.

Yesterday is not dead and over.

We can all say that we have many friends, but how many are real friends who will stick with you through thick and thin? or have impacted your life in any way, little or great, that they still hold a special place in your life even after years of not talking or drifting apart? Or, have you ever hurt a friend so much that the friendship ended and you know you have no one to blame but yourself?

I miss some friends. Friends whom i've drifted apart from, friends who have impacted my life and friends who moulded my life to be what it is. Friends whom i knew since young, friends who have stood by me when things looked doom. Friends who are still close to me, i miss yall too cos i can never get enough of yall. Friends who love me with their heart, and not their eyes. Friends who exchange my piece of love for them with sincerity.

I hope you know who you all are. In fact, if it even hit you that it could be you that i'm talking about, it must be you because it must have been that we have impacted each other's life before or now that you can feel my words with truth and depth. I'm sorry if i never really showed y'all how much i care, it's not that i don't but ... i just can't express myself well with people. I can't look at you and put a string of words into your ears and expect to knit us closer together. i like to keep my feelings in a little organ and i know it's wrong to hold this belief, but i believe that it's sufficient that i myself know that you mean a lot to me because you really do. I do not say i love you to just anyone to just any friend, i do not send nice messages to just anyone, and i will not think about you and pen this down if you're not even a close/good friend. Everyone has superficial friendship(i mean hi-bye friends), so do i... but i do not believe that i should feed any love into such friendships. Neither do i believe in befriending someone to reap benefits out of it.

So when i say i love you, i really do my [dear] friends.

On an extremely random note,

i went to the dog farm yesterday afternoon with D and my family. Geez, why are puppies so cute and when can i ever have one? ): I really want a golden retriever or a toy poodle. Damn.

And today, i went for facial at pandan valley(my first time there cos my previous facial therapist stopped doing facial) anddd...OUCH TO MY FACE AND POCKET. she say i need to go back in 3 weeks later for second round cos my skin condition now is rather bad /:

Some photos of D and i in town last week i think? Haven't been snapping much lately.

Jie and i went to holland v for dinner just now and we grabbed some food at cold storage and crystal jade (: haha i want more moneyyyy so i can buy alot alot alot of cakes, sweets, chocolates and fruits!! :D

I'mma launch Juice 12 next monday so stay tuned. I love the clothes and i wish i could launch it earlier but the clothes are only arriving end of this week! ): If you're a floral girl, nude/cream lover, or maybe YSL girl ... you're in for it!!

Alright, have a great week ahead!

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