this picture was taken when he webcam-ed with me.

on 19th dec06 , 4.38pm

this he twinky promised me(while eating pizza!) that he won't dance with fat and ugly girls at that night's party.

i know that's mean , but it was the past.

hahaha! ((:

two and half hour more to our 2 months , and i'm just done with the pressie.

i think it looks really nice :D

&&amp;& I KNOW FOR SURE HE'LL LOVE IT <:

mummy helped me a little bit too.

hahaha.

anyways , i just uploaded rain's new song.

aint like a fan of his or whatsoever , but i can't deny his songs are nice!

:DDD

goodnight , i'm gonna bathe [:

these three girls are gems to me ; angelyn , vera and fiona!

this is my nine years bestie , taken on his birthday ((:

with lots of love.

anyways school ended at 1:15pm today.

had so much fun in class with irvin , sijie , alvin and leonard today.

i got 30/50 for chinese , which is super good for me ((:

so like i was being silly and literally the class laughed at me.

irvin was laughing at the noise i made when i hurt my back.

elishe and ruiqi were laughing everything about me.

i think like irvin said , i suffer from mental disorder.

or to be more precise , split personality.

HAHAHA.

went to taka alone after school to get things for sheng (:

it's our two months tomorrow.

and i stayed up till like around 2am last night to make his stuffs , and he isn't aware i was doing for him.

AND HE DARED TO COMPLAIN I HAVE EYEBAGS TODAY.

hahaha((:

so went to meet sheng, leo and vann.

had tori-q for dinner/

HAHAH leo and i kept teasing sheng about him being too rich.

hahahah. :D

VERY FUN SEEING MY PRINCE BLUSHING AND SHY.

went to meridien for deserts , but it was closed.

so we had yami yoghurt.

jia , jj , xianwen , helmy and all were down there too.

they were making fun of this guy and it was hella hilarious.

TAHAHA.

sheng cabbed me back and i'm really tired now.

haven't pompom yet and i'm still wearing baby's jersey.

byeee worldd/

i'm gonna go make his present! :D

this is my pretty face , chenxiaowei.

i miss you babe! :D

i miss amanda ho alot alot alot too!

SERIOUSLY AMANDA , I DON'T KNOW WHEN ARE WE SEEING EACH OTHER AGAIN. I'M REALLY GONNA GET SO SAD IF TIME JUST PASSES US BY AND KISS US GOODBYE , CAUSE I DON'T WANT DISTANCE TO BE A BARRIER. I MISS YOU , REALLY (: and i'm willing to make time for you.

<3

school ended early today cause of sports heats.

went to cwp after school to check out some stuffs.

thank you irvin , and leo too!

home , then piano lesson.

then , TADADA went to meet my prince at coffee bean to study.

stayed there for about 2 hours.

hunn bought the mushroom chicken spag for me , and also berry d treasure.

mine's the ice blended mocha.(eeeek)

anyways , the spag was really nice. i fed sheng mouthfuls and he cut the bread for me ((:

we're very nice to each other , ---.---

HAHAH.

he studied like SO MUCH okay , not.

thanks dear !

and lessy , thanks for the strawberry hair tie! :D

goodnight all.

so many things are revolving around my life and i'm pretty happy with the way things fall into place. we grimace with disgust the setbacks life has put in place for us , but i marvel at the way God has done a wonderful job in my life. my family , my always existing friends , my ever doting me little superman (: , studies , piano etc

it's beyond your capacity to imagine , so don't even try! :D

i've let go of hatred , grudges and all the stinking political stuffs girls can ever have.

so yes , my point is

I'M A REALLY WEEEEEEEE HAPPY GIRL NOW!

[:

anyway people , you guys have to know mister chusheng's really really really nice to me!

don't doubt. ((:

so bestie , i'm in bliss.

don't worry!

goodnight worldd.

<3

YAY i'm backk! ((:

these are my pretty girls , vera's birthday party.

my comp was down , for like a month.

yeah.

i'm lazy to blog.

BYEBYEBYEBYE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ASSWIPE HOT VERA! <: you prettaye lady.


vera's party was not bad (: had alot of fun at least!
# humping the cookie monster.
# trying to hump alistair. (not what you're thinking!)
# bullying the old china man at the swimming pool.
# photos at the swimming pool.
# more and more and more , AND HELLA LOADS OF PHOTOS!
:D

yay , that's the best part. i felt really flattered last night cause i looked so tall , MY 3INCHES HEELS WHICH GAVE ME HELL HOME. hahaha! left slightly earlier last night cause i was really tired. baby called me when he reached home (: so i told him all the things i did at the party , and he didn't scold me :DDD YAY! he's so nice right ((: okay , i'll upload the photos tomorrow or something. it's all with different people! THERE'RE ALOTTTT OF PHOTOS.
and all my lessys looked drop dead gorgeous last night.
fiona, vera , angelyn! <33333


& baby's sleeping now cause he has a fever ):
-pouts.
hopefully he feels better after sleeping and all the tablets.
SHENGGGG , drink more water and rest plenty,
CAUSE I CARE! :D
<3!!!
bye worlddd.

waking to a soft kiss of a hero rather than a forked tongue against my lips ;


my already weakened fortitude finally crumbled as you held me tight in your arms.
what stared insolently from the pallor of my face were a pair of intense eyes framed with unceasing passion.
because of you , i'm seeing the world with sheer happiness.
hot tears scalded my eyes as i think of the enormity of your grace enshrouding me.
thank you for your understanding and love that's way beyond measure.
it's you that hold my attention captive.
; sheng.

today's a happy day! <: nearly suffered from heat stroke while waiting for cab just now , OMGAH! went to ngee ann poly open house with the class after school. it was only mediocre. saw like a million people and familiar faces there ((: babysheng came to look for me at np with like dharham , leo , greg and his other friends. left soon after that (: very nice sophia helped the np guys to do alot of surveys so they can go home early so like greg and sheng also helped. okayy i swear besides sheng and ong , greg is one of the funniest guy i've ever met. so like the np guy rewarded us with mph vouchers. i think at least 40bucks? so stupid leo was snatching cab with me. PFFT. we hopped on a cab after like 13763478512897446 years. sheng , irvin and i went to boon tong kee chicken rice to eat! :D and sheng came to my place after that. HAHAHHA BABY WE'VE NO TIME. (private joke.)


# sheng and i are trying to speak alien chinese now! we own all your ass-es when it comes to chinese! :D
# probably town with sheng and greg to get mph stuffs! :D
# VERA'S BIRTHDAY PARTY! <3

the world's a blur behind our eye.
celine , true friends are the ones who remain when you meet doom.
i'm always here for you (:



okayy thursday is always a happy day! (: BECAUSE OF MISS BETTY LEE. i swear she made me laughed my ass off , and i recorded the whole shit down. i laughed till i cried and coughed so badly in class just now. YAY! and i kept disturbing irvin and making weird noises in class. i'm gonna be another jon ong. hahaha! so like i called sheng after school.

sophia > hello baby , where're you going after school?
sheng > probably dota in town with isaac and leo.
sophia > okay forget it , i'll go home.
sheng > nonono you come town , i won't play dota.
sophia > okay then (:

baby you didn't make good your promise. i LOATHE / HATE / ABHOR DOTA!
you you you !
>:
you made me wait like a fool , walked in the rain cause i was too upset to run , felt so cold.
you should thank vanesa , cause if not for her i'd feel even more pissed off waiting for that erghfetyrhefgdhrteyfhf game to end.
i nearly cried when you told me to wait for you for half an hour at wheelock all by myself , thanks.

school ended much earlier today :D yayyy! OKAYY EVERYONE , JUST SHUT UP ABOUT MY HAIR OKAYY! it'll grow ! i hate it myself , so just shooosh. and pelyn tan , stop calling me dang kuku. it sounds awful! (:
so like went to causeway's mac with irvin after school for fries! i had like uncontrollable craving for fries today. we had two large packets! :D we walked all over causeway point , like literally. cause i wanted to get something for my lalala love! (: BUT I DIDN'T BRING BLING BLING OUT TODAY , so yeah like egfuyetrugahsydrtyr smart right! (: teehee. headed home at 3plus. i think i saw joel's friend , ben shuwei at the interchange. i think he recognised me or something cause he kept looking at me too. TAHAHHA. he's teh sexbomb , like really hot. okay enough. sheng is still my hot chimney! (: so like when i reached home , mummy told me she's gonna open a shop at holland area again. i was like yeah mum all the best , be as busy as possible k! HAHAHAH :D and,

mum > are you together with chusheng?
sophia > it's your call mum. if you think we are , then we are.
mum > i think you guys are together.
sophia > mm why ask then? WE ARE LAA :D

hahaha mummy's uber cute.
bye i'm gonna eat dinner.

sometimes i'm afraid i'll topple , and fail myself again.
i'm just afraid that already firm fortitude would crumble again ,
i don't wanna let you down.
let alone , darting your heart.
sometimes it's just another brave front.

hokayy hello people! (: i'm at aunty niko's house now and i'm really sleepy! jees/ churchd this morning at sembawang. daddy gave me a ride to bugis to meet chusheng (: went to the bus stop where his tuition is at. we went to eat at liang seah street , LIKE AGAIN! :D it's like a weekend thing. tahahaha! we ate duck rice and charsiew noodle and ordered extra eggs and tofu ((: was really bloated! went to far east plaza and i went to cut my hair. AHH DAMN , MY FRINGE IS HELLA SHORT NOW. the lady has problem understanding me >: sheng waited , and leo came with vanesa. leo and sheng went to buy bag and vanesa and i went around shopping. accompanied vanesa back to wheelock for work. maybe i'll buy the bag she showed me at the shop she's working at. ((: OMG AND SHE'S HELLA FUNNY WHEN SHE TRIED TO TAKE LEO'S BURBERRY KEYCHAIN! hahaha. left at 7plus and baby cabbed me to my aunt's place ((: THANK YOU SHENG! <:


there's school tomorrow ,
>:
):
/:
]:
:c



ps. alistair , it's vera's birthday party next sat at clifton park , starts at 6pm.
buzz me if you're going. all of us are going ((:

:D ni hao. teehee , mummy thwarted my plans for today >: quarrelled with her and i stayed home the whole day to do amath homework. went for church at 5plus and yeah it was good. one question struck me which is , WILL YOU CHANGE YOUR LIFESTYLE NOW IF GOD IS COMING TOMORROW. everyone should really give it a thought (: went home after that . sheng came to meet me at my place ((: LOVE. went for dinner and i had agar agar <: went to the playground after that ((: just sat there and talk for ahile and we headed home. THANK YOU DARL! <: i'm on the phone with you now , and you're still singing! AS USUAL! hahah./

GOODBYE & GOODNIGHT.
i need to bank in a good night rest!

hello! (: i couldn't get outta bed for physics lesson this morning. i'd have slept in class if i went , so might as well sleep in a better environment! :D reached home at 12plus last night. i swear i'd have lied on the roads if circumstances permit(: went to meet sheng at 6ish at meridien. he was with like dharham , leo , junncai , jasontan and some other guys , PLUS MY VERY METRO GOODFRIEND ; isaac chan! (: TAHAHA. so like i watched them play dota -.- dota = chinese. i understand shit. hahaha! (: my heels were death tolls last night. i nearly died with the heels that made me look taller than dharham. i'm 166cm and plus my heels , i'm like 170cm. so YAY. :D i wanted sushi so badly so baby and i went around paragon to search for it , only to land ourselves at heeren's wanton mee! (: which is bomblove. amazingly , some people whom i don't know sent me friendster message and asked me if i was there yesterday! HAHAH , very nice me didn't reply :P so sheng cabbed me to my aunt's place and went back to hillview from there. thanks baby! <:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRK! (: you're sixteen and i know you're darn proud of it cause it makes you LEGALISED FOR SOME STUFFS ((: you've been great great great! my very comedy and shit ass cute friend. been throught quite abit together , esp august05! HAHAHA. i'll probably see you for dinner tonight. your pressie's with alistair , IT'S DAMNED CUTTEEE!

today -------> meet sheng in town , leon's gonna be pissy with me!:D
then meet celine! (: I MISS YOU LIKE REALLY.
then angelyn and all for kirk'
s birthday!

school was cracking fun today! ((: irvin , sijie , leonard , alvin and i were laughing throughout cme lesson. shan't elaborate , but it felt real good man! :D i oven baked hashbrowns and ham this morning for irvin , alvin and sijie! but sijie and alvin thought it looked really disgusting >: chinese teacher caught me eating and took my hashhhhhbrowns away. BUT I STOLE IT BACK ON THE SLY !(: anyways , irvin brought cadbury chocs and sijie brought cute little sourheads. eujin and alvin made fun of me for a tremendous change cause i'm starting to do homework , except for chinese . teehee. ANYWAYS CHINESE ZHOU JI WAS KILLING THE SHIT OUTTA ME JUST NOW AND I ENDED UP WRITING PRI SCHOOL WORDS WHICH I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND. i'm really demoralised :/ stayed back in school after lessons to complete amath homework , simply because the book weigh a ton and i don't wanna carry it all the way back to chinese garden. YAY SCHOOL'S JUST SHITASS LOADS OF FUN TODAY! (:



baby's doing ss now , and i'm supposed to be studying chem now! (:
hahah i wanna talk to him.
but i shall wait till he finishes his work , cause it's really rare for sheng to do his work!
BYEBYEBYE.
<:

school was much of a snoozing place today. things were jampacked and i was extremely sleepy in class >: dragging my heels everywhere i go./ sijie gave alvin , irvin and i stone chocolates and royce chocolates! <: and he taught me addmath. what a nice boy rightttt! went home after school cause i wanna snuggle underneath my bedsheets! but but but baby sheng came to my house to look for me. -HUGS! so we talked on the bed till like dinnertime and i forced him to eat! ((: he left soon after that. i've like tonnes of homework but i forgot to bring all the books home. so i'm only left with chinese , so FORGET IT! (: i'm gonna sleep soon!

i'm like a piece of damp cloth ,
all of my energy are drained out like the dripping water.
I'M REALLY TIRED.
HAAHHA:D
byebyebye.


I SOOOOO NEED TO TRIM MY HAIR BUT MY HAIRSTYLIST JUST QUIT FROM HOLLYWOOD SECRETS. SCREW HOLLYWOOD SECRETS BIG TIME.

HEHEHEH<: HE'S MY BEAUTIFUL LOVE!
YAY :D
AND I LOOK SO CHUBBY IN THE PHOTOS.
TAHAHAH.


went for piano lesson after school. it was good! <: again, i love my piano teacher. hohoho! ((: honeylove called me after his soccer training. he cabbed down to my place from farrer park to have dinner with me [: ain't he sweet. 5 THUMBS UP FOR SHENG!
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE! :D we had a fun dinner ((: he bought fried hokkien mee again , which tempted the hell outta me. so he bought another plate for me (: i succumbed to the yummy thing! i fed my baby beeeeeegggg biiiiiig spoons. and i gave him half of the second plate. i bought AGAR AGAR! (: hehehe bomblove. ate till 7plus and we left. we walked to the roadside and waited for the fourth cab. he boarded , and i went home (: though it was a short period of time , i enjoyed his presence very much! <: HEAR THAT MY DEAR?! hehehe. AND I WANNA TELL THE WHOLE WORLD HE MAKES A VERY GOOD BOYFRIEND! <:


BUT HIS GOODFRIEND , LEONSEE IS ANNOYING THE SHIT OUTTA ME NOW.
grr!
goodbye world.

THIS IS MY BABY SHENG! (: HE'S VERY ADORABLE RIGHT!
i'm on the phone with him now & HE'S SINGING!


>: i've not seen him for five days already.
he's got something for me in a month's time ,
and i have something for him in 6 months' time.
like adhiodgiyfrabjkdhasksfnklj long right? ((:



anyways , I PASS MY AMATH PROVISIONAL PAPER! ((:
WHEEEEEEEEEEE. i'm very very very happy. but my dear puma bag's sling is spoilt): so i looked really retarded cuddling my bag home on the mrt just now! HAHAHA. i'm very tired now , and i have alot of work to do. school's gonna be till like 4pm tomorrow and i have piano lesson till 6?!
if only i was given 24hours to sleep , i'd sleep for 20 hours and talk to sheng for 4 hours <: no poo , no pee , no food. HAHAHA.
OH YES ALISTAIR , I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG. <: can you please buzz me asap. i needa ask you about kirk's birthday. you guys are spinning me around!

tata world! <:

baby , where's your terrorist hair? (:

YOU'RE SO DAMNIT ADORABLE!

mummy bought ondeh ondeh for breakfast today. but this batch isn't nice >: ANYWAYS , I'VE BEEN EATING ONDEH ONDEH FOR 3 CONSECUTIVE DAYS. hohoho ((: church service was at indoor stadium today. service was good cause it taught us like really practical things! ((: went to shop with aunty in town after that. i bought a red heels , and i love it! i saw like this red bag , gonna get it next week! went to meet alist and got kirk's present. spent time with bestie for about 4hours. we had alot of fun talking and playing in spotlight! and he took the train with me from dhoby ghaut to jurong east. and then he took back to admiralty. WHAT A NICE BESTFRIEND RIGHT! (:

leonsee is being a dickhead now.

he's making sheng and i laugh like crazy.

he's my rival.

omg!

:D

I'M HAPPY TODAY!
:D


went to woodlands library to study with irvin at like 10am. we bought the minitoons' sweets! ADDICTION (: ! left at 1pm and went to her house. oh yes! we bought ondeh ondeh again! ((: and the filling inside literally spilled out okay! we fried our own potato chips and my gosh , TANTALISING CRISPY POTATOES! i think we can like sell potato chips! <: supposed to go town to look for sheng , but decided to spend more time with my lessy! ((: headed for edge after that. today's sermon is awesome , about hope. made alot of sense to me!


someone asked me a question , here's your answer.

there's no unconditional love in this world.
no love that lasts forever.
love is something i find it hard to exist even between relationship.
even for sheng and i , i won't say it's love.
it's much of adoration and likeness.
because love is such a rare and mature thing.

joel leong for almost 2 years didn't ignite love i'd say.
it was more of a likeness and click-able thing.

i used to like this guy so much , i'd do anything for him.
i thought we would never end.
he snapped me back into the harsh reality,
but i still loved him for almost a year.
it was love , love that hurt so bad.
yet there was so resistance to the pain.
the only guy i've really loved so far.
then again , loved.
timothy han.

and now ,
i'm happy with sheng.
we're not together for long , so i won't say i love him.
i really really adore him and like him ((:
i'm beginning to love him actually.
time will prove everything yes!
love isn't something i'll give easily.
so isn't it a precious thing?
((:
sheng , things might not be forever.
we might not be forever.
everything is unpredictable.
but what matters most , is the present! ((:
we'll be an enchanting story for each other ,
creating miracles in each others' life.
i'll be your movie ,
simply because i adore you(:


jeremy seaward said something very meaningful today.

we shouldn't pin hopes on the world things cause they're temporary and brings us disappointment. only the father offers eternal hope (: